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Nov 26

Well, Lord, it is kinda looking like I won’t have much access to wifi/internet — and pretty much no phone service — for the indefinite future. I must admit, I feel pretty calm about that at the moment, just grateful that the sun is shining and warm. It is supposed to get up into the 70s several days this week, so I feel mighty fine. 🙂 Please help me make the best of what I have, and guide me in how to use my time wisely and accomplish whatever YOU want me to. Amen, thank you faithful Shepherd!

Psalm 100:1‭-‬5 AMPC

MAKE A joyful noise to the Lord, all you lands! Serve the Lord with gladness! Come before His presence with singing! Know (perceive, recognize, and understand with approval) that the Lord is God! It is He Who has made us, not we ourselves [and we are His]! We are His people and the sheep of His pasture. [Eph. 2:10.] Enter into His gates with thanksgiving and a thank offering and into His courts with praise! Be thankful and say so to Him, bless and affectionately praise His name! For the Lord is good; His mercy and loving-kindness are everlasting, His faithfulness and truth endure to all generations.


Nov 20

Good morning, Father!
Thank you for the nice Texas sunshine, warming me so cozily as I sit outside and write in 42 degree weather. It is good to be safely back South, where I am confident we can stay warm enough through the winter. I look forward to getting the camper more unpacked so that I can have my little office space/ art table back. I look forward to exploring the rocky terrain around me and finding cozy little places to sit and pray and brainstorm and plan out my next projects. I look forward to seeing people I know, and watching them grow. I pray that you make it plain to me, how I can help, and when and whom. Please help me to maintain my attitude of gratitude, so that I can be a blessing to those around me, cheering them like this warm sun is cheering me. Amen.

Isaiah 25:1‭-‬8 ERV

Lord, you are my God. I honor you and praise your name, because you did amazing things. The words you said long ago are completely true; everything happened exactly as you said it would. And you destroyed the city that was protected by strong walls. Now it is only a pile of rocks. The foreign palace has been destroyed. It will never be rebuilt. That is why powerful nations will honor you. Powerful people from strong cities will fear you. You have been a safe place for poor people in trouble. You are like a shelter from floods and shade from the heat when powerful men attack. They are like rain streaming down the walls that protect us from the storm. Like the heat of summer in a dry land, the angry shouts of those foreigners brought us to our knees. But like a thick cloud that blocks the summer heat, you answered their challenge. The Lord All-Powerful will give a feast for all the people on this mountain. At the feast, there will be the best foods and wines. The meat will be good and tender, the wine pure and clear. But now there is a veil covering all nations and people. This veil is called “death.” But death will be destroyed forever. And the Lord GOD will wipe away every tear from every face. In the past, all of his people were sad, but God will take away that sadness from the earth. All of this will happen because the Lord said it would.


Nov 16

Ok, Lord, I am fixin’ to pack up my Lenny laptop for at least several days, up to a week or two — depends on how long it takes my Mate to unbury my table in the camper, lol. BUT, I can still post from my phone… IF I have wifi/internet… Lord, please strengthen our minds and bodies for lifting the heavy items, plus the long drive and overnight sleep somewhere, probably parked at a truck stop or rest area or something… No matter what, THANK YOU for getting us the temporary plate so we can leave TODAY before the next storm hits here. I know I will feel much, much better once we are halfway down through Kansas, on our way to Oklahoma. Father, please help us get there in your perfect timing, so we can have a nice visit with my son. Please be with him, give him peace and HOPE. I am so grateful that you love him even more than I do. Please help him find his way to YOU, so he will never be alone ever again. Amen. 🙂

Psalm 102:1-17 ERV

A prayer for a time of suffering, when anyone feels weak and wants to tell their complaints to the LORD. LORD, hear my prayer. Listen to my cry for help. 
Don’t turn away from me when I have troubles. Listen to me, and answer me quickly when I cry for help. 
My life is passing away like smoke. My life is like a fire slowly burning out. 
My strength is gone— I am like dry, dying grass. I even forget to eat. 
Because of my sadness, I am losing so much weight that my skin hangs from my bones. 
I am lonely, like an owl living in the desert, like an owl living among old ruined buildings. 
I cannot sleep. I am like a lonely bird on the roof.
My enemies insult me all the time. They make fun of me and use me as an example in their curses. 
My great sadness is my only food. My tears fall into my drink. 
You were angry with me, so you picked me up and threw me away. 
My life is almost finished, like the long shadows at the end of the day. I am like dry and dying grass. 
But you, LORD, will rule as king forever! Your name will continue forever and ever! 
You will rise up and comfort Zion. The time has come for you to be kind to Zion. 
Your servants love her stones. They love even the dust of that city! 
The nations will worship the LORD’S name. All the kings on earth will honor you. 
The LORD will rebuild Zion, and people will again see her glory. 
He will listen to the prayers of those in poverty. He will not ignore them. 


Nov 15

Hello, Father!
PLEASE go with our friend in Texas who is trying to pick up our permit at the DMV, and please help him send it to me, and please help me be able to print it, and PLEASE help my Mate get everything packed up TODAY, so we can leave bright and early tomorrow morning. If not, PLEASE help me to be patient and not freak out at the coming COLD on Saturday (with a possiblity of SNOW again!!!). I have had all of my stuff done for a while now, and although I feel pretty calm right now, I am soooooo more than ready to get back to Texas so I can adapt to the change rather than just WAITING for the change, lol. Help me to enjoy the remaining time here, Lord. Please keep us warm and safe, and please bless our trip with peace and joy. Amen, thank you faithful Shepherd.

John 17:11-17 ERV

“Now I am coming to you. I will not stay in the world, but these followers of mine are still in the world. Holy Father, keep them safe by the power of your name—the name you gave me. Then they will be one, just as you and I are one. 
While I was with them, I kept them safe by the power of your name—the name you gave me. I protected them. And only one of them was lost—the one who was sure to be lost. This was to show the truth of what the Scriptures said would happen. 
“I am coming to you now. But I pray these things while I am still in the world. I say all this so that these followers can have the true happiness that I have. I want them to be completely happy. 
I have given them your teaching. And the world has hated them, because they don’t belong to the world, just as I don’t belong to the world. 
“I am not asking you to take them out of the world. But I am asking that you keep them safe from the Evil One. 
They don’t belong to the world, just as I don’t belong to the world. 
Make them ready for your service through your truth. Your teaching is truth.


Nov 14

Okay, Lord, I have got all my stuff packed back up — so much so that it is rather inconvenient to wait any longer… PLEASE help us get the temporary plate TODAY, so we can leave tomorrow… or at the very least, getting it tomorrow so that we can leave early on Friday. And if that is not possible, and even if it works out perfectly, PLEASE help me to just relax and trust your perfect timing. I feel like I am just hanging here, unable to concentrate, like having one foot in one state and one foot in the other — stretch and pull and try to survive the tide, lol. Oh, well… at least I have some good movies downloaded so I can just zone out whenever I am not needed to help others.

James 1:2-7 ERV

My brothers and sisters, you will have many kinds of trouble. But this gives you a reason to be very happy. 
You know that when your faith is tested, you learn to be patient in suffering. 
If you let that patience work in you, the end result will be good. You will be mature and complete. You will be all that God wants you to be. 
Do any of you need wisdom? Ask God for it. He is generous and enjoys giving to everyone. So he will give you wisdom. 
But when you ask God, you must believe. Don’t doubt him. Whoever doubts is like a wave in the sea that is blown up and down by the wind. 
People like that are thinking two different things at the same time. They can never decide what to do. So they should not think they will receive anything from the Lord. 


Nov 12

Good morning, Father!
WOOT! I am excited for CHANGE this week! One more night of single-digit temps, and we will hopefully have enough of a break to start packing and MOVING! Father, I thank you for the hope in my heart and the new understandings and insights I gained during the night. I thank you for my sister’s patience and kindness, and I thank you for my Mate’s strength of mind and body. I thank you for my health and that of my children. And I thank you for the visit with my awesome nephew yesterday — it was absolutely a delight to see him after so many years!! 😀

Psalm 4 ISV

When I call, answer me, my righteous God! When I was in distress, you set me free. Be gracious to me and hear my prayer. 
You people, how long will you malign my reputation? How long will you love what is vain and what is false? Interlude. 
But understand this: the LORD has set apart the godly for himself! The LORD will hear me when I cry out to him! 
Be angry, yet do not sin. Think about this when upon your beds, and be silent. Interlude. 
Offer sacrifices that are righteous, and put your confidence in the LORD. 
Many are asking, “Who will help us to see better days?” LORD, may the light of your favor shine upon us. 
You have given me more joy in my heart than at harvest times, when grain and wine abound. 
I will lie down and sleep in peace, for you alone, LORD, enable me to live securely.


Nov 11

Lord, the armed forces have not treated my family so well, but I DO appreciate the people who have put up with the military long enough to have had a chance to serve our nation well — including my sister. Thank you for the experience my children had, and thank you for providing at least one member of our family that had an overall positive experience. THANK YOU that I do not have to figure anything out myself, don’t have to make anything happen except for what is in my own personal control — my own attitude and behavior and projects (and the last one limitedly). Please help me hold onto JOY despite this cold, cold weather, and please help us get everything ready and LEAVE this northern cold in the next several days and safely make it back to Texas before it gets even colder down there, lol.

1 Corinthians 9:7-19 ERV

No soldier ever serves in the army and pays his own salary. No one ever plants a vineyard without eating some of the grapes himself. No one takes care of a flock of sheep without drinking some of the milk himself. 
These aren’t just my own thoughts. God’s law says the same thing. 
Yes, it is written in the Law of Moses: “When a work animal is being used to separate grain, don’t keep it from eating the grain.” When God said this, was he thinking only about work animals? No. 
He was really talking about us. Yes, that was written for us. The one who plows and the one who separates the grain should both expect to get some of the grain for their work. 
We planted spiritual seed among you, so we should be able to harvest from you some things for this life. Surely that is not asking too much. 
Others have this right to get things from you. So surely we have this right too. But we don’t use this right. No, we endure everything ourselves so that we will not stop anyone from obeying the Good News of Christ. 
Surely you know that those who work at the Temple get their food from the Temple. And those who serve at the altar get part of what is offered at the altar. 
It is the same with those who have the work of telling the Good News. The Lord has commanded that those who tell the Good News should get their living from this work. 
But I have not used any of these rights, and I am not trying to get anything from you. That is not my purpose for writing this. I would rather die than to have someone take away what for me is a great source of pride. 
It’s not my work of telling the Good News that gives me any reason to boast. That is my duty—something I must do. If I don’t tell people the Good News, I am in real trouble. 
If I did it because it was my own choice, I would deserve to be paid. But I have no choice. I must tell the Good News. So I am only doing the duty that was given to me. 
So what do I get for doing it? My reward is that when I tell people the Good News I can offer it to them for free and not use the rights that come with doing this work. 
I am free. I belong to no other person, but I make myself a slave to everyone. I do this to help save as many people as I can. 


Nov 8

Good morning, Lord!
Thank you for closeness and warmth — and warm clothes! I am hoping to get a couple more long sleeve shirts tomorrow at the free clothing exchange place, but I am happy happy happy to have found my warm fuzzy over-pants and my warm fuzzy over-sweater! Heehee — I guess it’s the little things that tickle me, give me joy. 😀 Father, I thank you for helping me endure my emotions during this time of change and facing the Unknowns once again. I thank you for the peace that I feel right now, as I sit in my sister’s warm kitchen — my old summer “office”, lol — working on my websites and making the best of this cold snap. Please help my Mate and I install the little insulation over our windows in the camper, so we don’t get toooooooo cold during the single-digit overnight temps that are coming. THANK YOU for our little space heater that keeps most of the camper warm enough to live in. I am looking forward to seeing just how much that insulation can make a difference! 🙂

Psalm 147:7-18 ERV

Give thanks to the LORD. Praise our God with harps. 
He fills the sky with clouds. He sends rain to the earth. He makes the grass grow on the mountains. 
He gives food to the animals. He feeds the young birds that cry out. 
War horses and powerful soldiers are not what he cares about. 
The LORD enjoys people who worship him and trust in his faithful love. 

Jerusalem, praise the LORD! Zion, praise your God! 
He makes your gates strong, and he blesses the people in your city. 
He brought peace to your country, so you have plenty of grain for food. 
He gives a command to the earth, and it quickly obeys. 
He makes the snow fall until the ground is as white as wool. He makes sleet blow through the air like dust. 
He makes hail fall like rocks from the sky. No one can stand the cold he sends. 
Then he gives another command, and warm air begins to blow. The ice melts, and water begins to flow.


Nov 6

Hello, Lord.
Thank you for the progress made yesterday. Some of it was actually quite painful, but I believe it was worth it, overall. Thank you for the sunshine and promise of 50 degrees today, so that I won’t freeze too bad in the forest today. Please help us to complete the remaining tasks and time here, and guide us to leave in YOUR timing. My Mate and I wish we could have left a couple weeks ago, and now this Big Chill is coming, overnight lows in the teens… YIKES!! Yet today in Texas it is supposed to be 80 degrees or so… Argh!! Lord, I sincerely desire to be FREE of weather-conciousness. The only huge effects it seems to have are upon my freedoms to move around and to work. I am grateful that temps over 90 or below 45 have been effecting my MOOD less each year, it seems… but I ask you to help me stretch my ability AND my willingness to work and to move about indoors and outdoors in those temperature extremes. Teach me, faithful Shepherd. I am willing. 🙂

1 Timothy 2:9-15 ERV

And I want the women to make themselves attractive in the right way. Their clothes should be sensible and appropriate. They should not draw attention to themselves with fancy hairstyles or gold jewelry or pearls or expensive clothes. 
But they should make themselves attractive by the good things they do. That is more appropriate for women who say they are devoted to God. 
A woman should learn while listening quietly and being completely willing to obey. 
I don’t allow a woman to teach a man or tell him what to do. She must listen quietly, 
because Adam was made first. Eve was made later. 
Also, Adam was not the one who was tricked. It was the woman who was tricked and became a sinner. 
But women will be saved in their work of having children. They will be saved if they continue to live in faith, love, and holiness with sensible behavior. 

LOL, Lord, you did not make me QUIET, but you did make me willing to serve, and faithful to obey. Still, I ask you to continue your work in me, including making me more and more able to LISTEN more patiently and attentively. My Mate and I both are passionate and hyperactive people, and it truly seems we both NEED to be, in order to live our Homeless Nomad lifestyle, heehee. I really enjoy the frugality and simplicity which we are developing, and I ask you to continue to lead us both in what YOU would have us do with the rest of our time in this life. Amen.

THANK YOU, Father, for this sweet little “forest art” that has been thriving on my desk for the past week or so… please bless it and help me keep it safe, eventually letting at least SOME of the 4 different species of moss inside it grow OUT where I can see it! <3


Nov 5

Good morning, Father.
Thank you for helping me finally get some sleep, and thank you for keeping my mind and heart relatively stable while I went through that little cram session of learning how to use my new digital tools! Thank you also for the fascinating new understanding of relation(ship)s as a foundational element to just about everything we DO — “every verb is interactive” — even how the physiological brain itself works is based on relationships and interactivity — how cool! 🙂

Psalm 33:13-22 ERV

The LORD looked down from heaven and saw all the people. 
From his high throne he looked down at all the people living on earth. 
He created every person’s mind, and he knows what each one is doing. 
A king is not saved by the power of his army. A soldier does not survive by his own great strength. 
Horses don’t really bring victory in war. Their strength cannot help you escape. 
The LORD watches over his followers, those who wait for him to show his faithful love. 
He saves them from death. He gives them strength when they are hungry. 
So we will wait for the LORD. He helps us and protects us. 
He makes us happy. We trust his holy name. 
LORD, we worship you, so show your great love for us. 

Lord, I am still a bit aggitated, impatient to get back down to Texas and nestle in for the winter. I admit that I still have anxious thoughts about packing up, getting unpacked, and making it the first part of the trip — either through the city or up and down those hills! I am concerned that we do not have enough money for gas. I wish I could just go to sleep and wake up in Oklahoma, visiting my son and having arrived at the less stressful, more fun part of the trip, lol. Please help me to trust you and keep putting all my little worries into your Hands, knowing that it will all be done in your perfect timing. I trust you completely, faithful Shepherd. Help me to STOP feeling like I have to be prepared for everything and just focus in on the task before me at the given moment. Amen.


Nov 4

Good morning, Father!
Thank you for the exciting new tools for web building I have found, and thank you for getting me up early to use internet time to learn more about using them! Thank you for excitement in my work, and for the progress made these last few days. Thank you also for the fun branding design time I had last night, almost keeping me up tooooo late, lol. Father, even as I feel better in my work, I am feeling much, much worse in my concerns for the near future — especially the process of getting back to Texas. I thought I had grown beyond this intense-type worrying, not having felt like this in about half a year, so I am quite disappointed to find myself THIS anxious. Perhaps lack of sleep or even hormones are contributing to my worrying mind. Either way, I ask you to help me with my anxiety over money, timing, SNOW, and packing/unpacking. I feel scared, Lord — and I’m not used to feeling that emotion any longer. Father, I purposefully strip off these worries and hand them over into your VERY capable and loving Hands. I do NOT need to figure anything out, and I have NO control over the weather and its timing. I CAN trust you and your timing. Please help me to just accept your will for me, and stop clutching these things as if they were mine. I give them all to YOU, faithful Shepherd. Amen.

Luke 12:24-26 ERV

Look at the birds. They don’t plant, harvest, or save food in houses or barns, but God feeds them. And you are worth much more than crows. 
None of you can add any time to your life by worrying about it. 
And if you can’t do the little things, why worry about the big things?

Philippians 4:4-8 ERV

Always be filled with joy in the Lord. I will say it again. Be filled with joy. 
Let everyone see that you are gentle and kind. The Lord is coming soon. 
Don’t worry about anything, but pray and ask God for everything you need, always giving thanks for what you have. 
And because you belong to Christ Jesus, God’s peace will stand guard over all your thoughts and feelings. His peace can do this far better than our human minds. 

Brothers and sisters, continue to think about what is good and worthy of praise. Think about what is true and honorable and right and pure and beautiful and respected.

Lord, I accept your peace. Help me give everything ELSE to you, so that your peace fills me and I can do my work without being hindered with worry. THANK YOU for this awesome new logo for my fledgeling site… this domain (URL) that I’ve owned for years, with a similar (but statitic GIF/JPG, non-scalable, non-vector) logo I created years ago (now updated to a scalable vector — WOOT!). I don’t know if I will actually use it beyond a place to play around and experiment with my new tools (digital toys!), so I give THIS to you as well, Lord. LOL, the site may remain empty forever, or it might blossom into something fruitful… I don’t even have a plan, other than to LEARN and GROW forward. But herein is it’s re-birth documented, lol.


Nov 3

Good morning, Father!
THANK YOU for taking such excellent care of me, leading me to a pleasant place where I have found my way forward in my work once again! Thank you for helping me get more familiar with my three new tools for building my websites, already having made the initial updates to and 🙂

Numbers 16:37 ERV

“Tell Eleazar son of Aaron the priest to get all the incense pans from the fire. Tell him to scatter the coals and ashes. These men sinned against me, and their sin cost them their lives. But the incense pans are still holy. The pans became holy when people gave them to the LORD. Hammer the pans into flat sheets. Use the metal sheets to cover the altar. This will be a warning to all the Israelites.” 

Jeremiah 9:7-8 ERV

So the LORD All-Powerful says, “A worker heats metal in a fire to test it and see if it is pure. I will test the people of Judah like that. I have no other choice. My people have sinned. 
The people of Judah have tongues as sharp as arrows. Their mouths speak lies. They all speak kindly to their neighbors, but they are secretly planning ways to attack them. 

Jeremiah 6:27-30 ERV

Jeremiah, I want you to be like a worker who tests metals. You will test my people and watch how they live. 
My people have turned against me, and they are very stubborn. They say bad things about people. They are like bronze and iron that are covered with rust and tarnish. 
They are like a worker who tried to make silver pure. The bellows blew strongly, and the fire became hotter, but only lead came from the fire. The worker wasted his time trying to make that silver pure. In the same way the evil was not removed from my people. 
My people will be called ‘Rejected Silver.’ They will be given that name because the LORD did not accept them.” 

Isaiah 1:25 ERV

People use lye to clean silver. In the same way, I will clean away all your wrongs. I will remove all the impurities from you.

Isaiah 48:10 ERV

Look, I will make you pure, but not in the way you make silver pure. I will make you pure by giving you troubles. 

Titus 3:14 ERV

Our people must learn to use their lives for doing good and helping anyone who has a need. Then they will not have empty lives. 


Nov 2

Good morning, Lord.
I feel very aggitated again, Father. It seems like I MAY be on the verge of a breakthrough, having found some extremely interesting new tools for building my websites… but right now the options and endless decisions to be made seem overwhelming and even discouraging. I feel irritated, impatient, and a little bit weepy. I want to curl up in a ball and wait until there are fewer Unknowns — and warmer weather! Doors seem to be closing here in Iowa, it is getting colder, hardly supposed to even get up to 50 in the coming days — and RAIN on top of that. It seems impossible to get our last things done here now, and my Mate and I are both feeling quite a bit on edge, tense. Neither one of us wants to be here any longer, just wanting to get back to Texas NOW. But we may have to wait until the middle of the month, when I get enough money to pay for the gas to make the trip. Frustrating. Help me to be patient and TRUST you, Lord!

I Timothy 1:19 ERV

Continue to trust in God and do what you know is right. Some people have not done this, and their faith is now in ruins.

1 Peter 4:15-19 ERV

You may suffer, but don’t let it be because you murder, steal, make trouble, or try to control other people’s lives. 
But if you suffer because you are a “Christ-follower,” don’t be ashamed. You should praise God for that name. 
It is time for judging to begin. That judging will begin with God’s family. If it begins with us, then what will happen to those who don’t accept the Good News of God? 
“If it is hard for even a good person to be saved, what will happen to the one who is against God and full of sin?” 
So if God wants you to suffer, you should trust your lives to him. He is the one who made you, and you can trust him. So continue to do good. 

Father, I put all my worries and concerns in your fully capable Hands. It does no one any good for me to try to figure anything out, and it just creates more tension for me to even THINK about the things I cannot change. I ask you to lead us BOTH to accomplish the things we need to, in your perfect timing. And I ask you to give me peace and the ability to just bury myself in my work and in service to others, concentrating on the things I CAN do, changes I CAN make. Help me to be grateful for what I have, and make the best of what you’ve given me. Help me to be your little Acceptance with Joy. Amen. 🙂


Nov 1

Good morning, Father!
Thank you for helping me get up and going early this morning so I can use the “free internet time” before 8am — especially since the library’s internet crapped out on us almost immediately yesterday, AND the changes I’m trying to make on the OMP site are much more complicated than I anticipated. Lord, please help me to eat and move my body in ways that promote health, and help me to loosen up my tight back and stengthen my sore shoulder. THANK YOU for your awesome help and guidance with the deer hide — it’s coming along GREAT! Please lead me to some spots in the forest where I can gather more walnuts, and help me to crush them and use them for the tanning part of the process. Continue to guide me through your Spirit’s leading — not just with the hide but also in my work and play, all the things I do and say. 😉

Romans 8:12-17 ERV

So, my brothers and sisters, we must not be ruled by our sinful selves. We must not live the way our sinful selves want. 
If you use your lives to do what your sinful selves want, you will die spiritually. But if you use the Spirit’s help to stop doing the wrong things you do with your body, you will have true life. 
The true children of God are those who let God’s Spirit lead them. 
The Spirit that we received is not a spirit that makes us slaves again and causes us to fear. The Spirit that we have makes us God’s chosen children. And with that Spirit we cry out, “Abba, Father.” 
And the Spirit himself speaks to our spirits and makes us sure that we are God’s children. 
If we are God’s children, we will get the blessings God has for his people. He will give us all that he has given Christ. But we must suffer like Christ suffered. Then we will be able to share his glory. 


Oct 31

Hello, Father!
Thank you for the distraction of lighthearted fun these last few days, and thank you for keeping my Mate safe while he shimmied up the tree like a black bear to get the dog’s toy, lol. I am simply amazed that he didn’t have a single scratch on his skin or clothing — how awesome is that?!

Please help me make the best use of this little library time today, Lord — and help me find a new theme for the OMP site, so that I do not have to spend a bunch of time re-coding the one I am currently using. THANK YOU for encouraging me in my work and in my relationships, Lord — and even in my art! Please be with each of my children today, keep them safe and give them HOPE. Amen. 🙂

Job 4:6-19 ERV

You worship God. You trust him. You are a good man, so let that be your hope. 
Can you think of any innocent person who was ever destroyed? Do you know of any place where good people are punished? 
Yes, I have seen people whose lives were cut short, but they were evil troublemakers. 
They lost the breath God gave them. They were cut off from his breath of life. 
They were like roaring lions, like growling lions with broken teeth— 
like a lioness that cannot find prey. They died, and their cubs starved to death. 
“I happened to hear a message. My ears caught a whisper of it. 
Like a bad dream in the night, it ruined my sleep. 
It frightened me, and I trembled down to my bones. 
A spirit passed by my face. The hair on my body stood up! 
The spirit stood still, but I could not see what it was. A shape stood before my eyes, and there was silence. Then I heard a quiet voice: 
A person cannot be more right than God. People cannot be more pure than their Maker. 
Look, God cannot even trust his heavenly servants. He sees faults even in his angels. 
So surely people are worse! They live in houses of clay built on dust. They can be crushed as easily as a moth! 


Oct 29

Thank you, Lord, for the awesome distraction and progress and adventure and FUN yesterday evening, and thank you for making it all flow so easily and freely! Thank you for closeness with my Mate and understanding from my sister. Thank you for the sunshine today, and please help me to get the last outdoor things done on this supposedly last warm day. Prepare us in all ways for returning to Texas, even as we continue to finish things up around here. Please continue to be with me and guide me in tanning the deer hide, and help me to not cling to it in any way but to always stay willing to give it up or hand it over at any moment — probably to my Mate who wishes to use it on a jacket, but actually to whomever YOU choose to have it, Lord. You gave it to us, and it is still yours. I appreciate the experience and the strengthening of my faith through the entire thing. It has been delightful to be so close and personal with a part of your creation.

Colossians 1:21-23 ERV

At one time you were separated from God. You were his enemies in your minds, because the evil you did was against him. 
But now he has made you his friends again. He did this by the death Christ suffered while he was in his body. He did it so that he could present you to himself as people who are holy, blameless, and without anything that would make you guilty before him. 
And that is what will happen if you continue to believe in the Good News you heard. You must remain strong and sure in your faith. You must not let anything cause you to give up the hope that became yours when you heard the Good News. That same Good News has been told to everyone on earth, and that’s the work that I, Paul, was given to do. 


Oct 28

Hello, Father.
This morning I am grateful that I do not have to make any serious decisions or serious progress. I feel a bit discouraged and frustrated, but my head is so fuzzy and my emotions so dulled that it all seems distant and of no real consequence. “Maybe next week…” but for now, it seems like I am just waiting, chillin’, almost in survival mode but without feeling actually threatened. I am grateful to not be very alert and aware right now, and I am content to just rest and follow you, faithful Shepherd. You are capable of producing weeks’ worth of work in me in a matter of hours or even days, so I should not sweat the down-times, I suppose. There are things I want to be working on, building and creating, but with my head so fuzzy, I will be content just to Love and and be patient. Anything I DO accomplish right now is a bonus. Thank you, Lord Jesus, for the awesome gifts of mercy and Life! 🙂

2 Peter 1:3-11 ERV

Jesus has the power of God. And his power has given us everything we need to live a life devoted to God. We have these things because we know him. Jesus chose us by his glory and goodness, 
through which he also gave us the very great and rich gifts that he promised us. With these gifts you can share in being like God. And so you will escape the ruin that comes to people in the world because of the evil things they want. 
Because you have these blessings, do all you can to add to your life these things: to your faith add goodness; to your goodness add knowledge
to your knowledge add self-control; to your self-control add patience; to your patience add devotion to God
to your devotion add kindness toward your brothers and sisters in Christ, and to this kindness add love
If all these things are in you and growing, you will never fail to be useful to God. You will produce the kind of fruit that should come from your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. 
But those who don’t grow in these blessings are blind. They cannot see clearly what they have. They have forgotten that they were cleansed from their past sins. 
My brothers and sisters, God called you and chose you to be his. Do your best to live in a way that shows you really are God’s called and chosen people. If you do all this, you will never fall. 
And you will be given a very great welcome into the kingdom of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, a kingdom that never ends. 

Lord, I think I BEGAN with devotion to you, and it is nearly inseparable from faith. Goodness is hard for me to comprehend, and patience and self-control are growing in me, but often stilted by my flesh. I feel like I have grown in kindness and Love the most over the last few years, but I really do not understand what TYPE of “knowledge” is referred to here… I’m gonna look at these verses in the King James…

2 Peter 1:5-8 KJV

And beside this, giving all diligence, add to your faith virtue; and to virtue knowledge; 
And to knowledge temperance; and to temperance patience; and to patience godliness; 
And to godliness brotherly kindness; and to brotherly kindness charity. 
For if these things be in you, and abound, they make you that ye shall neither be barren nor unfruitful in the knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. 

Knowledge is gnosis here — “knowing” — translated also as “science“, strangely enough, but I believe this just means something akin to careful and diligent study and the understanding that can be derived from it.

Goodness or virtue is definitely the hardest for my fuzzy brain to comprehend, but it does actually seem like something that God works in me, rather than something I can produce myself. I think the “giving all diligence” in the King James has to do with ongoing, consistent yielding to His will above my own. It is a process that did not have a distinct beginning for me personally, and will no doubt ever end in this lifetime. In fact, ALL of these things seem to be “works in progress” that SHOULD never end nor be complete while we are alive.

Lord, I thank you that I do not NEED to know or understand these things. I need only know YOU, follow you, and yield to your Touch to be remade in your image, ever becoming more you than my own pitiful self. I thank you for healing and strengthening me, and I thank you for protecting me and providing for all my needs. Please continue your work in me — as I know that you will — and make me more pleasing to you all the time. Amen.


Oct 27

Good morning, Father!
Thank you for the closeness and the moment to moment comfort and care you give me. Thank you that I don’t have to have anything figured out – I can trust you to lead me forward and provide every little thing I need. I delight in belonging to you, faithful Shepherd! I look forward to this day with you. Amen.

Jeremiah 17:5‭-‬8 AMPC

Thus says the Lord: Cursed [with great evil] is the strong man who trusts in and relies on frail man, making weak [human] flesh his arm, and whose mind and heart turn aside from the Lord. For he shall be like a shrub or a person naked and destitute in the desert; and he shall not see any good come, but shall dwell in the parched places in the wilderness, in an uninhabited salt land. [Most] blessed is the man who believes in, trusts in, and relies on the Lord, and whose hope and confidence the Lord is. For he shall be like a tree planted by the waters that spreads out its roots by the river; and it shall not see and fear when heat comes; but its leaf shall be green. It shall not be anxious and full of care in the year of drought, nor shall it cease yielding fruit.


Oct 26

Father, I feel quite aggitated this morning. I don’t feel quite actively worried about anything in particular, I guess I just feel generally frustrated with money and time and weather and especially with my own self and lack of productivity. It doesn’t seem to matter to me that I got a TON of work done yesterday — I feel fatter and lazier than I should be, having ate sugar stuff the last two days — and feeling like crap during the night, and in the morning. At least I am not as dizzy today as I was yesterday. Lord, please help me to stop trying to comfort myself with food, and help me look to YOU for my strength, my goodness, and my worth. Help me to allow your Holy Spirit to comfort and guide me forward this day. Help me to accept your provision and not feel like I have to work extra hard to provide for everyone around me. In truth, we ALL must trust YOU for everything in our lives.

Psalm 123 ERV

A song for going up to the Temple. Lord, I look up and pray to you. You sit as King in heaven. 
A slave looks to his master to provide what he needs, and a servant girl depends on the woman she serves. So we depend on the LORD our God, waiting for him to have mercy on us. 
LORD, be merciful to us, because we have been insulted much too long. 

We have had enough of the hateful words of those proud people who make fun of us and show us no respect. 


Oct 25

Good morning, Lord.
I am feeling pretty distant and BLAH this morning, like I am not really “all here”. I seem to have dulled senses, although my mind seems to be fine, just low-emotionality. It is actually quite comfortable, like I am content just to do whatever, and accept everything as impermanent and therefore nothing to feel very strongly about, one way or the other. THANK YOU for this nice break from emotion, faithful Shepherd. LOL 😉

Psalm 26:2-8 ERV

Look closely at me, LORD, and test me. Judge my deepest thoughts and emotions. 
I always remember your faithful love. I depend on your faithfulness. 

I don’t run around with troublemakers. I have nothing to do with hypocrites. 
I hate being around evil people. I refuse to join those gangs of crooks. 
LORD, I wash my hands to make myself pure, so that I can come to your altar. 
I sing a song to give you thanks, and I tell about all the wonderful things you have done. 
LORD, I love the house where you live, the place where your glory is.