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Nov 27

Good morning, Father. Lord, I am drained pretty dry. I’ve poured myself out and it wasn’t too much until it was too late. I tried to reach out to you for hours, but I just wasn’t big enough, strong enough, Lord, to let YOUR help be ENOUGH. I failed you, reaching out for human support […]

Nov 19

Good morning, Father! Thank you so much for your awesome love and care! Thank you for making it so that my husband was motivated to turn on the heat today, so that it can be warmer than 50-some degrees in the house, helping me to not be so distracted with cold. Please help him, Father. […]

Nov 1

Good morning, Father. Thank you for the nice early walk with the sunrise this morning. Thank you for letting me hit some crazy level yesterday where I am now humbled and subdued, although I seem to have lost a bit of hope and quite a measure of my joy as well. Please help me to […]

Sep 10

Good morning, Father. Thank you for the nice morning walk in the misty rain, coming back home and it still being only 69 degrees outside — cool enough to open the window and the door! Father, my heart still aches, like my best friend has betrayed me or is mad at me. I know you […]

Aug 11

Good morning, Father. I really don’t know how I am going to make it through this day — or even the next few months — but I know that the ONLY way to do it is to hang on tight to YOU! I’m tired, Lord. I want to go back to being oblivious, NOT knowing […]

Dark Night

Lord, this night is hard. So many people in my world are suicidal or suffering at the hand of despair. My own daughter is attacking me, blaming me, despite my insistence on respecting her, treating her as I would wish YOU to treat me, Lord. I have given my very best to everyone I know, […]

Jul 10

Good morning, Father. Thank you for your patience with me. Please help me to have more patience with myself and my life situation, and please help me with HOPE. Ever since the power went out yesterday, I have felt a level of despair that has been rising, increasing, spreading — and I really do not […]

May 30

Hello, Father. This is getting very difficult. These hormone imbalances are really taking a toll on me. Please teach me how to keep them balanced, Lord, so I don’t end up killing myself or something…! I know the instructions say I am only supposed to use the progesterone cream for 3 weeks, then go a […]

Mar 28

Good morning, God. I don’t feel so good today. I’m sorry, but I am feeling pretty lousy, inside and out. Feel like worthless Garbage People, too low to lift my eyes to you. Full of shame, self-loathing, lacking hope. I’m sure you are still with me just as much as ever, so I am just […]

Mar 23

Good morning, Father. Please cleanse my heart, so it is not broken into many unusable pieces under this weight I feel. Help me to lift it to you, gift it to you, and leave it with you. Life is too big for me right now, and I’ve sunk into survival mode, hanging by a thread […]

Mar 18

Good morning, Lord. I am still very low on hope, and frustrated with myself and with life. But I do not wish to dwell on that. I wish instead to just hand all that over to you, and trust you, and keep looking to you. I know you will provide everything I actually need, even […]

Mar 17

Good morning, Lord. I feel restless this morning, not very settled, like I want to GO somewhere, preferably get to moving OUT of this house! But there’s no money, no way to even put my best things in storage. And now, for the first time in many years, I am facing not even having a […]

Mar 9

Lord, I only just THINK I know what I need. But you see what I cannot, for I am severely limited by the cloud of emotions I am under, and by my very narrow human perspective. Father, I ask you to come to my aid. Help me lift the burden of my heart up to […]

Mar 7

Hi, God. My heart is really straining to reach up to you and be brave and not give up. So I think I’ll just read scriptures for a while and post here the ones that comfort my heart, to try to help myself and anyone else out there who’s hurting.

  Psalm 33:18-22 ERV

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Mar 6

Good morning, Lord. Father, I feel like such a failure. It’s not that I’ve done anything so WRONG, but rather that I just can’t seem to get anything RIGHT! My car is dying and there is little chance that it will pass inspection, which means unless you work some miracle, I probably won’t have any […]

Mar 5

Lord, I need HELP. I have been living in shame and isolation for 25 years. You have been my only friend, besides my husband. I have never known the kindness or nurturing of a female heart, a female friend, a mother or sister or aunt or mentor who accepts me, sticks with me, shows me […]

Jan 26

Hello, God. I think this is the lowest I’ve felt so far this year. I pray that you send me some type of encouragement, because I feel like my heart is too heavy to lift, to write, to work, to live. Please heal this hole in my heart, Lord God, and give me hope again.

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