Good morning, Father.
In some way, I feel like I have betrayed my Tiny Friend, for I have made it past the two things that were holding me to him. I took down his outdoor pen and mowed in the front yard, and I took a shower and (what feels like) washed him all off of me. That feels sad, Lord. But I know it is necessary. My husband says I do NOT have to let go of Rusty. This confuses me, because I thought that was my biggest job — to let go of him. All I know are three things, Lord: 1) I am sad, I miss my Tiny Friend!! 2) I AM healing, growing, learning. 3) You are Faithful, Lord.
Psalm 89:1-2,8 ERV
A maskil from Ethan the Ezrahite. I will sing forever about the LORD’S love. I will sing about his faithfulness forever and ever!
I will say, “Your faithful love will last forever. Your loyalty is like the sky–there is no end to it!”
LORD God All-Powerful, there is no one like you. You are strong, LORD, and always faithful.
Lord, I think the one thing that you, me, and little Rusty had in common is faithfulness. He was faithful to me like I am faithful to you. You are faithful to me like I was faithful to him. Thank you for teaching me faithfulness and love and service and care through my tiny little 7-pound dog who was my constant companion for the last 12 years of my life. I didn’t ask for him, didn’t want him, wasn’t looking for him. But just like that you put him into my life and knit our hearts together. The love I gave him healed him physically and emotionally and the love he gave back became a source of comfort and joy to me that I still do not fully comprehend. I just know I miss it. Teach me and heal me, Oh Shepherd!