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Jan 13

Good morning, Father!
Thank you for getting me up bright and early, 5am and already making progress! I am soooooo grateful to have “normal” internet again, Lord! I can do soooooooooo much now! But Lord, I ask you to help me BALANCE input and output — because you know me, how I get so very lost in the flow that I work myself into a state of burnout. Please help me to stop working and PLAY, to take walks, to do things offline and outdoors. And Lord, as the Mover of Men’s Hearts, I ask you to help my Mate to balance his input with enough output to keep him healthy… help him STOP watching YouTube and Netflix and tell me stories, talk to me all about what he’s been watching/learning/getting insight into… and PLEASE help him get out of the camper and do things outside, when it is not so cold and windy. Please help us both to be wise enough and humble enough to avoid the traps created by reliable internet — in a nutshell, gluttony of either work or entertainment, whatever we happen to have a tendency toward. THANK YOU for providing opposite tendencies for us, so that we can achieve better balance together, even just by “hanging out” — as we have been known to do for up to 3 days straight nonstop, just talking and laughing and being best friends. Thank you for this man, Lord. Please continue to shower your mercy upon him, and protect him. Amen.

 
Psalm 73 ERV

Asaph’s song of praise. God is so good to Israel, to those whose hearts are pure. 
But I almost slipped and lost my balance. I almost fell into sin. 
I saw that wicked people were successful, and I became jealous of those proud people. 
They are healthy. They don’t have to struggle to survive. 
They don’t suffer like the rest of us. They don’t have troubles like other people. 
So they are proud and hateful. This is as easy to see as the jewels and fancy clothes they wear. 
If they see something they like, they go and take it. They do whatever they want. 
They make fun of others and say cruel things about them. In their pride they make plans to hurt people. 
They think they are gods! They think they are the rulers of the earth. 
Even God’s people turn to them and do what they say. 
Those evil people say, “God does not know what we are doing! God Most High does not know!” 
Those proud people are wicked, but they are rich and getting richer. 
Clearly, then, I gain nothing by keeping my thoughts pure! What good is it to keep myself from sin? 
God, I suffer all day long, and you punish me every morning. 
I wanted to tell others these things, but that would have made me a traitor to your people. 
I tried hard to understand all this, but it was too hard for me. 
But then, God, I went to your Temple, and I understood what will happen to the wicked. 
Clearly, you have put them in danger. You make it easy for them to fall and be destroyed. 
Trouble can come suddenly, and they will be ruined. Terrible things can happen to them, and they will be finished. 
Then they will be like a dream that we forget when we wake up. You will make them disappear like the monsters in our dreams. 
I was so stupid. I thought about such people and became upset. God, I was upset and angry with you! I acted like a senseless animal. 
But I am always with you. You hold my hand. 
You lead me and give me good advice
, and later you will lead me to glory. 
In heaven, God, I have only you. And if I am with you, what on earth could I want? 
Maybe my mind and body will become weak, but God is my source of strength. He is mine forever! 
God, people who leave you will be lost. You will destroy all who are not faithful to you. 
As for me, all I need is to be close to God. I have made the Lord GOD my place of safety. And, God, I will tell about all that you have done. 

 
WOW! That psalm seems to describe me so well! In the past I struggled with feeling jealous of the rich and the extreme physical comfort they live in — but honestly, that mentality seems so distant now, that I barely remember HOW I could envy them. I mostly just see the TRAP they are caught in, the crippling dependency they have upon so very many manmade objects. However, I still do struggle at times with SHAME — feeling like I am somehow unworthy, not good enough to have certain BASIC comforts like fast internet (not right now, heehee!!!) or certain kinds of foods I enjoy, or the freedom to drive a car and run my errands, or to buy the craft supplies I want to use, or even to wash my clothes or take a hot shower at the time when I desire to do so. But ya know, to be honest, NONE of these things ever really bother me that much. It’s as if the Shepherd’s faithful Hand stays on my heart, keeping it warm, infusing me with hope and joy no matter what is happening around me. Every year I grow — in contentment, peace, and unshakable joy. I struggle with my emotions like anyone else — especially when my premenopause hormones act up! But my Creator made me in such a way that I have been “Little Miss Sunshine” since I was 5 years old — a nickname given to me by a dying man who shared one week of extreme trauma with me — and I pray that God continue to let me shine His Love out through my eyes, my smile, my words, my heart — to everyone I meet. Amen. Thank you, Lord Jesus!! 😀

 

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