Lord, I need HELP.
I have been living in shame and isolation for 25 years.
You have been my only friend, besides my husband.
I have never known the kindness or nurturing of a female heart, a female friend, a mother or sister or aunt or mentor who accepts me, sticks with me, shows me YOUR unconditional love.
I have known plenty of criticism and “tough love” — enough to make my heart sick!
Now I feel desperate to be seen and known and understood — and to get BACK some of that encouragement and unconditional love that I have showered on others — even my enemies — my whole life.
I have seen that you hold SOMETHING new for me. Could that include a little feminine support, please? Only once before have I ever HOPED for such a luxury. And that hope was crushed, shot down. Will you please build a NEW hope in me today, Lord?
Proverbs 13:12 KJV
Hope deferred maketh the heart sick: but when the desire cometh, it is a tree of life.
Proverbs 13:12 ISV
Delayed hope makes the heart ill, but fulfilled longing is a tree of life.