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Jun 26

Lord, I am pretty frustrated this morning. I feel a bit embarassed, even ashamed, that we have not made more progress in the last 3 or 4 weeks. Although I had no concrete expectations back in March or April when we thought we would soon become “homeless nomads”, my subconscious expectation was to at least be OUT of Texas by now, free to travel from one state to another or at least from one free campground to another, following your leading. I confess openly to you that I do mildly resent the fact that we have been in the same place for over 3 weeks now, and we still do not have a livable camper, and our truck is still stuffed with STUFF, still in storage mode. I am sorry for my weakness and my weepiness, Oh Faithful Shepherd. I know that your will and your timing is much better than anything I could orchestrate myself. Please help me to rest in you and not be so rest-LESS! Show me what to do with my time, what applications to practice or products to create, or videos to produce… or even MORE ways to reach out to even MORE people to try to find somewhere to park the camper while we rebuild it. I feel helpless, even useless today, Lord. I crave progress, but I will not force my will. Help me to accept YOUR will and timing instead. Amen.

 
Acts 4:23-30 ERV

Peter and John left the meeting of Jewish leaders and went to their own group. They told the group everything that the leading priests and the older Jewish leaders had said to them. 
When the believers heard this, they all prayed to God with one purpose. They said, “Master, you are the one who made the sky, the earth, the sea, and everything in the world. 
Our ancestor David was your servant. With the help of the Holy Spirit he wrote these words: ‘Why are the nations shouting? Why are the people planning such useless things? 
The kings of the earth prepare themselves to fight, and the rulers all come together against the Lord and against his Messiah.’ 
That’s what actually happened when Herod, Pontius Pilate, the other nations, and the people of Israel all came together against Jesus here in Jerusalem. He is your holy Servant, the one you made to be the Messiah. 
These people who came together against Jesus made your plan happen. It was done because of your power and your will. 
And now, Lord, listen to what they are saying. They are trying to make us afraid. We are your servants. Help us to say what you want us to say without fear. 
Help us to be brave by showing us your power. Make sick people well. Cause miraculous signs and wonders to happen by the authority of Jesus, your holy servant.” 

 
Lord, you see all that is in me, my heart’s desires and intentions, all my strengths and weaknesses. You know that I am a DOER, a hyperactive go-getter who cannot stand to be stagnant even for one day, and who finds it difficult to relax in most situations (although nature and certain natural things help!). I would so much rather RUN forward at top speed right now, pausing only long enough to accomplish a dozen little side items along the way. I have so much unused energy just sitting here waiting that I am growing concerned that it is unhealthy for my body. Lord, I want to stay here and be a help mate to my husband today, but I feel anxious that it will result in more delay, more disappointment. Lord Jesus, please help me to lift the burden of my impatience to you today, and leave it at your feet. Help me find contentment in YOUR pace, and help me to find fulfilment in doing whatever YOU give me to do today. I still trust you completely. Thank you for choosing me.

 

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