Good morning, Father.
Thank you for a good night of restorative sleep, and thank you for helping me feel quite a bit better today. I am antsy, Lord, as I wait for my new laptop to arrive. To be honest, I am kinda weepy. I wish I was not so sensitive! I have been so excited, anticipating change for the good, despite all the negatives within my circumstances. But when I received two doses of highly critical feedback, I felt condemned and started second-guessing myself. I know it is just the enemy trying to weaken me, but to be honest, knowing that just kinda makes it worse! I am kicking myself for being so sensitive, so unsure of myself, so reactive to negativity, so unstable. And kicking myself for those things just makes the criticism seem that much more believable and condemning and crippling! Father, please help my silly heart let GO of human criticisms and cling instead to YOU and how YOU see me — the work YOU are doing in me!
Job 5:9-21 ERV
People cannot understand the wonderful things God does. His miracles are too many to count.
He sends rain all over the earth and waters the fields.
He raises up the humble and makes sad people happy.
He spoils the plans of even the smartest people so that they will not succeed.
He catches those who think they are wise in their own clever traps and brings to an end their evil plans.
Daylight will be like darkness for them. Even at noon they will have to feel their way as in the dark.
God saves the poor from the hurtful words of the wicked. He saves them from those who are powerful.
So the poor have hope; God shuts the mouths of those who would cause them harm.
“You are fortunate when God corrects you. So don’t complain when God All-Powerful punishes you.
God might injure you, but he will bandage those wounds. He might hurt you, but his hands also heal.
He will save you again and again. No evil will harm you.
God will save you from death when there is famine. He will protect you from the sword when there is war.
People might say bad things about you with their sharp tongues. But God will protect you. You will not be afraid when bad things happen!
It’s here!! It came while I was reading Job… Father, I dedicate this laptop to YOU and I ask you to use it for your purpose and your glory. It belongs to you, not to me, and if it gets hurt or stolen, then please help me to be wise enough to remember that YOU have allowed that to happen. I can just be patient, and trust in you. Lord God, my faith is in you, not in myself or in any piece of hardware or software or website or fanbase or anything else I could ever acquire myself, in this life. Help me to be wise and not run ahead of you, doing my own thing. Help me to be humble and not think that my work or my words accomplish any good, but rather it is my willingness to yield to your work and your words and your will for me, that makes a real difference. Before I open this box and admire the laptop you have lent to me from your goodwill, I thank you already that some day I will no longer have it. And at that time, I ask you to remind me that I no longer need it, either. For whatever I truly do need, you faithfully provide. If I do not have it right now, I do not NEED it right now. Thank you for providing, Jehovah-jireh! Thank you, Faithful Shepherd! 😀