Wow, Lord, I am so distracted and fuzzy-headed today that I had to actually check if I’d done my daily post on here or not — and of course, I hadn’t. Good thing I checked! Father, I am having so much trouble with both my computer and my body/mind that I just have to give it all to you and trust you to lead me forward. I wish I could just make art and read and learn and not even have to be on my computer at all, it is frustrating me so badly. Still, I must persist, moving forward on the things you have given me to do. Perhaps some day I can effectively “retire” from building my websites and being so frustrated and discouraged with the whole thing. For now, I just give it all to you, Father. Please continue to prune things out of my life that hold me back from being pleasing to you, and please give me the courage and motivation to keep doing the things YOU want me to do, Lord. Amen!
Psalm 5:2-12 ERV
My God and King, listen to my prayer.
Every morning, LORD, I lay my gifts before you and look to you for help. And every morning you hear my prayers.
God, you don’t want evil people near you. They cannot stay in your presence.
Fools cannot come near you. You hate those who do evil.
You destroy those who tell lies. LORD, you hate those who make secret plans to hurt others.
But by your great mercy, I can enter your house. I can worship in your holy Temple with fear and respect for you.
LORD, show me your right way of living, and make it easy for me to follow. People are looking for my weaknesses, so show me how you want me to live.
My enemies never tell the truth. They only want to destroy people. Their words come from mouths that are like open graves. They use their lying tongues to deceive others.
Punish them, God! Let them be caught in their own traps. They have turned against you, so punish them for their many crimes.
But let those who trust in you be happy forever. Protect and strengthen those who love your name.
LORD, when you bless good people, you surround them with your love, like a large shield that protects them.
Lord, I sincerely want to do things your way, but my head is so foggy that I can’t even know what I am supposed to do. I know you have said today is the last day I need to go without my hormone cream, so in a few days I should be back to “normal”, but I do not want to just be useless and floppy until then! Please guide me clearly, Lord, and help me to not keep beating myself up for not being more productive and fruitful right now. Help me to be as patient with myself as I would be with any other person. Please cover my weakness, Lord. Give me something I can do for you today, even when I cannot think straight. Thank you, kind Shepherd! 😛