Good morning, Father.
Thank you for the awesome progress yesterday, despite how I felt. It was nice to finally finish up that project I’ve been working on for 3 weeks — and now I can move forward, past it, at LAST — YAY! 😀 Father, you see, you know, you understand. Premenopause has been pretty rough on me so far, and although I think I may be getting better at ignoring these crazy emotions, I don’t seem to be able to do anything about the lack of clear thinking, the “fuzzy-headedness”. And you know what else. I put it all into your capable hands, and trust you to guide me through it. Thank you, Faithful Lord!
Proverbs 3:1-8 ERV
My son, don’t forget my teaching. Remember what I tell you to do.
What I teach will give you a good, long life, and all will go well for you.
Don’t ever let love and loyalty leave you. Tie them around your neck, and write them on your heart.
Then God will be pleased and think well of you and so will everyone else.
Trust the LORD completely, and don’t depend on your own knowledge.
With every step you take, think about what he wants, and he will help you go the right way.
Don’t trust in your own wisdom, but fear and respect the LORD and stay away from evil.
If you do this, it will be like a refreshing drink and medicine for your body.
I really need these verses this morning! Sometimes I feel like ALL I have are love and loyalty, and it never seems like ENOUGH. But I guess sometimes clinging tight to God and doing whatever He gives you to do really IS enough — even if you feel emotionally raw and mentally vulnerable, deficient. I AM making progress, I am still firmly planted in God’s loving garden, and some days that’s all I can really be or do. My Shepherd holds my place in His flock, and I could not earn a spot there no matter how “good” and “accomplished” and “successful” I try to be. He just wants me to Love Him, and give Him room to work in my life. Well, Lord, there’s lots of room, and lots of places that need work. But there’s also evidence of your mercy and grace, in every nook and cranny. So there is HOPE. Thank you for caring for me, Lord! Please help me to just cling to you, and to realize that YOU are ENOUGH!! 😀