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Mar 18

Hello, Lord.
Thank you for sunshine and fresh air, with perfect temperatures for working and relaxing, and exploring the woods and ravines and watersides. Thank you for fellowship with my Mate and a few others, and thank you for giving me sincerity and an honest witness and testimony. Thank you for being my stability, the reason I can do anything good at all, and the reason I can bounce back from any suffering and learn from so many mistakes. Thank you for being my Life and my Hope. Please continue to bless my work and make me fruitful for you and helpful to your people. Amen. 🙂

 
Colossians 1:5-14 ERV

Your faith and love continue because you know what is waiting for you in heaven—the hope you have had since you first heard the true message, the Good News 
that was told to you. Throughout the world, this Good News is bringing blessings and is spreading. And that’s what has been happening among you since the first time you heard it and understood the truth about God’s grace. 
You heard it from Epaphras, our dear friend and co-worker. He is a faithful servant of Christ for us. 
He also told us about the love you have from the Spirit. 
Since the day we heard these things about you, we have continued praying for you. This is what we pray: that God will make you completely sure of what he wants by giving you all the wisdom and spiritual understanding you need; 
that this will help you live in a way that brings honor to the Lord and pleases him in every way; that your life will produce good works of every kind and that you will grow in your knowledge of God;
that God will strengthen you with his own great power, so that you will be patient and not give up when troubles come.
Then you will be happy 
and give thanks to the Father. He has made you able to have what he has promised to give all his holy people, who live in the light. 
God made us free from the power of darkness. And he brought us into the kingdom of his dear Son. 
The Son paid the price to make us free. In him we have forgiveness of our sins.

 

Mar 17

Hello, Father.
THANK YOU for the breakthroughs early this morning, when I grew weary of trying to sleep and decided to get up and work. THANK YOU for the patience and compassion that my Mate showed me right when I felt like I was breaking down, and thank you for the encouragement of being able to show him — almost immediately — how his kindness paid off. I may not have everything worked out yet, but I feel a LOT better having created the foundational structure upon which to build. Lord, please be near my Mate this day as he works with a man who might be a problem, and on a project that is bound to test his patience, if not his physical stamina. Strengthen him, Father — in body, mind, and spirit. Thank you for touching him last night, giving him a huge dose of your strength already. I feel humbled and privileged to witness some of the intense interactions of your Spirit with all the hardcore men around me, and them with each other. I am delighted that there are still men who do not let themselves be TAMED by any master but you, Lord. I feel honored to be one of your Little Ones, looking to you for all of my needs and desires. I trust you completely, faithful Shepherd. Lead on! 🙂

 
Luke 11:14-28 ERV

One time Jesus was sending a demon out of a man who could not talk. When the demon came out, the man was able to speak. The crowds were amazed. 
But some of the people said, “He uses the power of Satan to force demons out of people. Satan is the ruler of demons.” 
Some others there wanted to test Jesus. They asked him to do a miracle as a sign from God. 
But he knew what they were thinking. So he said to them, “Every kingdom that fights against itself will be destroyed. And a family that fights against itself will break apart. 
So if Satan is fighting against himself, how will his kingdom survive? You say that I use the power of Satan to force out demons. 
But if I use Satan’s power to force out demons, then what power do your people use when they force out demons? So your own people will prove that you are wrong. 
But I use the power of God to force out demons. This shows that God’s kingdom has now come to you. 
“When a strong man with many weapons guards his own house, the things in his house are safe. 
But suppose a stronger man comes and defeats him. The stronger man will take away the weapons that the first man trusted to keep his house safe. Then the stronger man will do what he wants with the other man’s things. 
Whoever is not with me is against me. And anyone who does not work with me is working against me. 
“When an evil spirit comes out of someone, it travels through dry places, looking for a place to rest. But it finds no place to rest. So it says, ‘I will go back to the home I left.’ 
When it comes back, it finds that home all neat and clean. 
Then the evil spirit goes out and brings back seven other spirits more evil than itself. They all go and live there, and that person has even more trouble than before.” 
As Jesus was saying these things, a woman with the people there called out to him, “Blessings from God belong to the woman who gave birth to you and fed you!” 
But Jesus said, “The people who hear the teaching of God and obey it—they are the ones who have God’s blessing.” 

 
Lord, help me to not be a fool and try to work against you, even when I don’t realize I am doing it. Please give me wisdom, patience, humility, and courage so that I can do your will and not just whatever I think I need to accomplish. Help my heart and mind find rest inside the peace that you provide for those who love and serve you. Let me be found faithful, and let my Mate and children be FREE and have a personal, intimate relationship with you — the two things I desire most in this lifetime. THANK YOU for hearing my heart, Lord God. Amen. 🙂

 

Mar 16

Good morning, Father!
Thank you for getting me to bed early and up again early, with lots of time on either side to hang out with my Mate and get some distance from the stresses of working on my website restructuring. THANK YOU for providing me with clear sight forward, knowing how to proceed after a day of confusion and lack of confidence. Please continue to help me every step of the way, Lord, as I experience the highs and the lows, the failures and the learning from failures. Help me to pay attention not only to what “works” but also to what YOU want me to see and understand and remember. BE my memory and my understanding, Lord Jesus. I give you my will and my mind, my life and my time. Amen.

 
Isaiah 42:12-17 ERV

Give glory to the LORD. Praise him, all you people in faraway lands! 
The LORD will go out like a strong soldier. Like a man going into battle, he will be full of excitement. He will shout with a loud cry, and he will defeat his enemies. 
“For a long time I have said nothing. I have controlled myself and kept quiet. But now I will cry out like a woman giving birth. My breathing is getting faster and louder. 
I will destroy the hills and mountains. I will dry up all the plants that grow there. I will change rivers to dry land and dry up pools of water. 
Then I will lead the blind along a path they never knew to places where they have never been before. I will change darkness into light for them. I will make the rough ground smooth. I will do these things for them; I will not abandon my people. 
But some of them have left me. They say to their gold statues, ‘You are my gods.’ They trust their false gods, but they will be disappointed and shamed. 

 

Mar 15

Beware the Ides of March! LOL, and yeah, I kinda feel like a living Caesar sometimes, heehee. But they couldn’t kill me when I was 3… or 5… or almost 6… or 15… despite burying me alive, torturing me, leaving me for dead… it is YOU who gives man breath (including me) and it is YOU who decides when to take it away. I am grateful for your Breath in me, Lord — both the physical life-giving breath and the spiritual life-giving Pneuma. Thank you for the gift of Life, even when this lifetime seems to have outlived its usefulness, lol. I can joke because I am NOT wounded and hurting right now, because I do not fear death (REST AT LAST!!), and because I have a sense of humor and play — lightness rather than uptighness, heehee. I THANK YOU, Lord, for making me just how I am — and allowing me to live through all that I have. Please protect me from the drama that is swirling around — I want no part in it. I want to just focus on my work and helping others in any way that actually HELPS them — not just doing things for the entertainment value. Please help me to be wise and humble, and not fall into their emotional traps to create more drama and entertainment for sick minds. Help me to respond in a way that honors their heart without fueling their game. Thank you for honoring my desire to be sincere and free from that evil game-playing, Lord. Thank you for guarding my heart and mind, faithful Shepherd. I trust you completely. Amen. 🙂

 
Psalms 71:24 ERV

My tongue will sing about your goodness all the time, because those who wanted to kill me have been defeated and disgraced.

Proverbs 18:21 ERV

The tongue can speak words that bring life or death. Those who love to talk must be ready to accept what it brings.

James 3:2-6 ERV

We all make many mistakes. A person who never said anything wrong would be perfect. Someone like that would be able to control their whole body too. 
We put bits into the mouths of horses to make them obey us. With these bits we can control their whole body. 
It is the same with ships. A ship is very big, and it is pushed by strong winds. But a very small rudder controls that big ship. And the one who controls the rudder decides where the ship will go. It goes where he wants it to go. 
It is the same with our tongue. It is a small part of the body, but it can boast about doing great things. A big forest fire can be started with only a little flame. 
The tongue is like a fire. It is a world of evil among the parts of our body. It spreads its evil through our whole body and starts a fire that influences all of life. It gets this fire from hell.

 
Lord, I give you my tongue, my hands, my heart, my mind, my time. Please burn away the things in me that are not pleasing to you and that only interfere with what you will for me to do or to be. I sincerely desire to be compassionate, fair, honest… and a blessing to all those whom I have the opportunity to serve. Help me with my tongue. Help me to speak with compassion and understanding. Help me to be humble, wise, and teachable. Amen. Thank you, Lord Jesus. 🙂

 

Mar 14

Today is March 14th… 3.14… PI Day! LOL 😀 And as befits a nerd like me, I have purchased a new domain (URL) to celebrate! Heehee. Seriously, though. Fifteen years ago I started my first website, HomeEducationResources.com, as a Thesis Project for my master’s degree in Information Systems Management. I had a vision. It became reality, and it was wildly popular, maxing out at 100,000 visitors in ONE day! But then in 2012 my web host and shopping cart software owner went out of business, and I started over from scratch, rebuilding upon a WordPress platform, turning that one website into six and creating a couple dozen OTHER websites along the way. Fast forward to now, and I find myself at a huge disadvantage having so MANY websites, and desperately needing to consolidate them down into just ONE (possibly 2 or 3), just to be able to afford the security protection that is now REQUIRED on the modern web. I have researched until I lose sight of life itself, and today I have stopped struggling and given in to my fate. I will henceforth be rebuilding all my sites as mere SECTIONS on the presently BLANK fledgling website: FranLaff.com. Yes, it will even replace FranLafferty.com… and PrintableSpanish.com… and even the original, HomeEducationResources.com! This way, I can rebuild just ONE site, and my peeps will all be able to SECURELY log into the site to purchase printables — or even just to become “Users” on the site, to play little interactive games and earn badges… but that is all in the future. I challenge myself to make this my sole ONLINE project for MY stuff… I still have offline work to do for my HSL colors project, plus on- & off-line stuff for my adopted father’s RV park. 😉
 
By the way: Yes, I did ask my husband if it was offensive to cut the “-erty” off the name he gave to me (Lafferty). I have his approval and his blessing. We both agree that the -erty is actually part of its coolness, however, as the letters go right in order across the QWERTY keyboard layout. 😉 😀 😉

 
Ecclesiastes 2:21-26 ERV

People can work hard using all their wisdom and knowledge and skill. But they will die and other people will get the things they worked for. They did not do the work, but they will get everything. That makes me very sad. It is also not fair and is senseless. 
What do people really have after all their work and struggling in this life? 
Throughout their life, they have pain, frustrations, and hard work. Even at night, a person’s mind does not rest. This is also senseless. 
There is no one who has tried to enjoy life more than I have. And this is what I learned: The best thing people can do is eat, drink, and enjoy the work they must do. I also saw that this comes from God. 
If people do good and please God, he will give them wisdom, knowledge, and joy. But those who sin will get only the work of gathering and carrying things. God takes from the bad person and gives to the good person. But all this work is useless. It is like trying to catch the wind. 

 
That was written by Solomon, of course — the man who is held by many to be “the wisest man who ever lived”. And he says many times in Ecclesiastes the same basic thing as what I highlighted above: the best us mortal humans can do in this lifetime is to eat, drink, and enjoy the work given us to do. THANK YOU, Lord, for helping me find a way to enjoy my work more, and to be more proud of my work by rooting out the outdated materials and building on a more firm foundation — something that hopefully I can someday be HAPPY to pass on to someone else. 😀

 

Mar 12

Good morning, Father.
Thank you for helping me select a new web host, and please help me in the coming weeks and months, as I slowly migrate all twenty-plus websites, rebuilding each one using Elementor and Pods. Give me wisdom, patience with the process, and patience with other people as I am constantly interrupted in my work, to be a servant and helper and wife and basic human with annoying needs of my own, lol.

 
James 3:13-18 ERV

Are there any among you who are really wise and understanding? Then you should show your wisdom by living right. You should do what is good with humility. A wise person does not boast. 
If you are selfish and have bitter jealousy in your hearts, you have no reason to boast. Your boasting is a lie that hides the truth. 
That kind of “wisdom” does not come from God. That “wisdom” comes from the world. It is not spiritual. It is from the devil. 
Where there is jealousy and selfishness, there will be confusion and every kind of evil. 
But the wisdom that comes from God is like this: First, it is pure. It is also peaceful, gentle, and easy to please. This wisdom is always ready to help people who have trouble and to do good for others. This wisdom is always fair and honest. 
People who work for peace in a peaceful way get the blessings that come from right living. 

 
Lord, please help me be humble and patient and CALM. Help me to listen lovingly to others, and help me to even be patient with my own body and its needs, stopping to exercise and get outside and walk, take showers and eat well, and even to just STOP working and give my brain some downtime and SLEEP! THANK YOU for protecting me (for the most part) from frivolous requests by people, to do “monkey work” like cleaning and such… as I already have enough seemingly frivolous jobs to do that demand a little bit more competence — like resizing and organizing 13,000 photos on a disk, and listing items for sale on Craigslist. Sometimes I do wish there were several of me, Lord — so I could wear a couple of these “hats” at a time, lol. THANK YOU for making me just how I am, Father… I would rather have my head spinning with the challenge of working on many projects at once, learning soooooo much as I go… being a producer of content, not just a consumer of it. I have no real complaints, and I hereby hand over all my concerns to you. I trust you completely, faithful Shepherd. Amen. 😀

 

Mar 11

Good morning, Father!
Thank you for my tiny little toaster oven, just big enough to toast myself some homemade granola for my breakfast!! I now have a way to make small amounts of baked goods (anything that can fit on a pie plate) and give some as gifts to my peeps! Yay!! I am just about to walk over to give my adopted family a gift of granola in a little stoneware pot… after I finish this post and get done eating my own granola in yogurt breakfast, lol.

 
Luke 6:37-45 ERV

Don’t judge others, and God will not judge you. Don’t condemn others, and you will not be condemned. Forgive others, and you will be forgiven. 
Give to others, and you will receive. You will be given much. It will be poured into your hands—more than you can hold. You will be given so much that it will spill into your lap. The way you give to others is the way God will give to you.” 
Jesus told them this story: “Can a blind man lead another blind man? No. Both of them will fall into a ditch. 
Students are not better than their teacher. But when they have been fully taught, they will be like their teacher. 
“Why do you notice the small piece of dust that is in your friend’s eye, but you don’t see the big piece of wood that is in your own eye? 
You say to your friend, ‘Let me get that little piece of dust out of your eye.’ Why do you say this? Can’t you see that big piece of wood in your own eye? You are a hypocrite. First, take the wood out of your own eye. Then you will see clearly to get the dust out of your friend’s eye. 
“A good tree does not produce bad fruit. And a bad tree does not produce good fruit. 
Every tree is known by the kind of fruit it produces. You won’t find figs on thorny weeds. And you can’t pick grapes from thornbushes! 
Good people have good things saved in their hearts. That’s why they say good things. But those who are evil have hearts full of evil, and that’s why they say things that are evil. What people say with their mouths comes from what fills their hearts. 

 
Lord, many times what comes out my mouth does not seem to accurately reflect what is in my heart. I ask you to purify my words, my mind, my heart. Help me to be filled with YOUR goodness on the inside, and to be able to express goodness in a way that people do not misinterpret. Help me to become more skilled at both listening and speaking with kindness and compassion. Amen.

 

Mar 10

Ah-hah! Now I understand — or remember — why time went so fast “last night” when I was amazed that it was almost 5am before I even TRIED to go to sleep, lol. Sadly, the “loss” of an hour before I even went to bed does not help me feel better about getting less than 4 hours of sleep since then. It is just one more thing I will have to trust you for, my Lord — adequate sleep!! Still, I have NO complaints at all besides the seeming inadequacy of time and of sleep. It is overcast today, and I already have the window by my desk uncovered and the ground outside my window “baited” with chicken fat scraps, old cereal, and several bites of my Mate’s leftover dinner he couldn’t finish last night. Perhaps I can make up a little bit for all the awesome scenes I have MISSED in the last few days with my camera… like the cat toying with the mouse just a few minutes ago, which ran off by the time I got the phone and started recording… and the redtail hawk sitting in the bare-branched tree where you could see him clearly as he got bombarded by one of the blue jays that routinely patrols that spot (my favorite cottonwood tree!). It might be the very same blue jay that chased off these ducks…

 
James 4:8-15 ERV

Come near to God and he will come near to you. You are sinners, so clean sin out of your lives. You are trying to follow God and the world at the same time. Make your thinking pure. 
Be sad, be sorry, and cry! Change your laughter into crying. Change your joy into sadness. 
Be humble before the Lord, and he will make you great. 
Brothers and sisters, don’t say anything against each other. If you criticize your brother or sister in Christ or judge them, you are criticizing and judging the law they follow. And when you are judging the law, you are not a follower of the law. You have become a judge. 
God is the one who gave us the law, and he is the Judge. He is the only one who can save and destroy. So it is not right for you to judge anyone. 
Some of you say, “Today or tomorrow we will go to some city. We will stay there a year, do business, and make money.” Listen, think about this: 
You don’t know what will happen tomorrow. Your life is like a fog. You can see it for a short time, but then it goes away. 
So you should say, “If the Lord wants, we will live and do this or that.”
 

 
LOL, I started this post over 2 hours ago now… and that just goes to show what my life is like. Before I finish one thing… this comes up… and in order to do THAT, I have to do this other thing… then finally back to the first… but there are a whole series of things left over that I was working on last night, that follow the same pattern of digging myself out of LAYERS of tasks… complete my page on Google Fonts so I can PICK the fonts I want to use for that new website… so I can test out the new web host… so I can migrate the first of my sites over… then keeping on migrating, rebuilding sites as I do so… meanwhile continuing to work on other projects like my HSL color books and the website (and social media and videos like the one above) for the RV park I am staying at… and of COURSE spending time with my Mate every day and keeping us fed and such… LOL, Lord… I know you see WHY I ask for help with ordering my TIME and being a good stewardess of my resources, including my energy. Please help me to look to you this day, and remember that YOU are the Lord and Master of TIME, just as much as of everything else. THANK YOU! 🙂

 

Mar 9

Good morning, Father!
Thank you for the wonderful humidity and 62 degrees this morning, my window slightly open and the sunshine glinting off nearby objects outside. Thank you for the little breeze that comes in through my window, whispering the goodness of my awesome Creator! Thank you for all the intriguing projects I have going, reminding me that I am a little bit of a creator myself. I will have to take some time to update my Creating with the Creator Patreon page, to reflect my most currently consuming projects, lol. There are a lot of them! 🙂

 
Revelations 2:1-7 ERV

“Write this to the angel of the church in Ephesus: “Here is a message from the one who holds the seven stars in his right hand and walks among the seven golden lampstands. 
I know what you do, how hard you work and never give up. I know that you don’t accept evil people. You have tested those who say they are apostles but are not. You found that they are liars. 
You never stop trying. You have endured troubles for my name and have not given up. 

“But I have this against you: You have left the love you had in the beginning. 
So remember where you were before you fell. Change your hearts and do what you did at first. If you don’t change, I will come to you and remove your lampstand from its place. 
But there is something you do that is right—you hate the things that the Nicolaitans do. I also hate what they do. 
“Everyone who hears this should listen to what the Spirit says to the churches. To those who win the victory I will give the right to eat the fruit from the tree of life, which is in God’s paradise. 

 
Lord, I thank you for the ability to work hard, and the willingness to always help others. I ask that you help me remember my “first Love” — putting Love FIRST, so that I am always willing to pause in mid-stream and go help someone while the opportunity exists. I thank you for allowing me to help so many people through my work, and I ask you to continue to provide for all the needs of myself, my Mate, and my beloved peeps. Amen! Thank you, faithful Shepherd — I trust you completely!

 

Mar 8

Good morning, Father!
Thank you for the excitement I have, learning new ways to redesign all my websites AND the motivation of slowly migrating each site to a new web host so that I can FINALLY escape all the discouraging problems I’ve had with GoDaddy over the last few years!! If all goes well, I may even soon be adding new elements to THIS website — my homely little prayer blog, heehee. THANK YOU for helping me figure out a way to use what I have RIGHT NOW to make changes, without having to wait until I have $50 for this, and $100 for that, and $200 for the upgrade I’ve been wanting — and thinking that I NEEDED! Lord, please help me appreciate myself and my skillset a little more. It is hard for me to give myself any credit for it (especially since I don’t make much money for it), but the truth is that there is usually a whole TEAM of people who build and maintain ONE website… several content creators writing text and adding visuals… the people who create the visuals… people who create products… who turn products into PDFs… perhaps a dedicated photographer and/or videographer… then there’s all the people who work on the web design and functionality… and marketing… and social media/promotion… WOW! And little me does ALL that… for over a dozen different websites!!! And here I am, knocking myself for not getting enough done, fast enough… and for not having all my sites updated into a format I can be proud of. Well, Lord, with your help, I will winnow out any sites that I do NOT need to keep going… and rebuild ALL the sites that you DO want me to keep going, along with any that are still in their infancy or haven’t even been created yet, lol. Perhaps some day ALL my sites will be ready for public browsing and interaction! :O

 
Psalm 127 ERV

A song from Solomon for going up to the Temple. If it is not the LORD who builds a house, the builders are wasting their time. If it is not the LORD who watches over the city, the guards are wasting their time. 
It is a waste of time to get up early and stay up late, trying to make a living. The Lord provides for those he loves, even while they are sleeping. 
Children are a gift from the LORD, a reward from a mother’s womb. 
A young man’s sons are like the arrows in a soldier’s hand. 
The man who fills his quiver with sons will be very blessed. He will never be defeated when he opposes his enemy at the city gates. 

 

Mar 7

Good morning, Lord!
THANK YOU for the awesome progress and exciting changes, Father! THANK YOU for keeping me CALM while I dealt with the crisis yesterday and the night before, and thank you for guiding me faithfully, providing little puzzle pieces in advance that I never could have known I would NEED! It is so awesome to be able to see you working in my life, Lord, and to have a little way to share it with others. It is delightful to be your child, one of your Little Ones who put our trust in you!

 
Isaiah 26:2-14 ERV

Open the gates for the good people to enter. They are God’s faithful followers
God, you give true peace to people who depend on you, to those who trust in you. 
So trust the LORD always, because in the LORD YAH you have a place of safety forever. 

But he will destroy the proud city and punish those who live there. He will throw that high city down to the ground. It will fall into the dust. 
Then poor and humble people will walk on those ruins. 
Honesty is the path good people follow. They follow the path that is straight and true. And God, you make that way smooth and easy to follow. 
But, LORD, we are waiting for your way of justice. We want to honor you and your name. 
At night my soul longs to be with you, and the spirit in me wants to be with you at the dawn of every new day. When your way of justice comes to the world, people will learn the right way of living. 
Evil people will not learn to do good, even if you show them only kindness. They will still do wrong, even if they live in a good world. They never see the LORD’S greatness. 

LORD, your arm is raised to punish them, but they don’t see it. Show them how strong your love is for your people. Then those who are evil will be ashamed. Yes, your fire will destroy your enemies. 
LORD, you have succeeded in doing everything we tried to do, so give us peace. 
LORD, you are our God, but in the past, we followed other lords. We belonged to other masters, but now we want people to remember only one name—yours. 
Those dead lords will not come to life. Those ghosts will not rise from death. You decided to destroy them, and you destroyed everything that makes us think about them. 

 

Mar 5

Hello, Lord!
Thank you for all the progress made in the last 24 hours or so, and thank you for the SUN shining brightly again today! I am so grateful to be in a place where even though the windchill was in the single digits 24 hours ago, in about 50 hours or less from now, it is supposed to be over 70 degrees again — WOOT!! 😀 Lord, I thank you for the encouragement you’ve given me, directly and through a couple of my customers yesterday and this morning. I truly do feel encouraged, and it is delightful to have a direction to go in, and motivation to proceed.

 
2 Timothy 1:16-18 ERV

I pray that the Lord will show mercy to the family of Onesiphorus. Many times Onesiphorus encouraged me. He was not ashamed that I was in prison. 
No, he was not ashamed. When he came to Rome, he looked and looked for me until he found me. 
I pray that the Lord Jesus will make sure Onesiphorus receives mercy from the Lord God on that Day. You know how many ways this brother helped me in Ephesus.

 
Lord, I ask that you bless those who have encouraged me, and help me to make wise and faithful use of the resources you have given me. Show me how to use my time and skills to help others. Help me to be “sunshine” to others, as your warm sunshine is helping me so much this day!! 😀

 

Mar 3

Good morning, Lord.
The way I see it, I have at least 4 different “problems” that are bogging down my heart and mind and really becoming a burden. Perhaps the simplest is the ongoing problem of helping my “boss” get into his Facebook account when all possible passwords that he remembers do not work and both the FB account AND the email address used to set it up use a landline phone. Of course, the only thing the stupid automated systems will do is send a TEXT to the phone on record… or to the email address which cannot be accessed and itself will only send a TEXT for verification. I think I MAY have found a way around this, using an SMS service for the landline. Still, this is weighing on me and I needed to “unload” it. A related problem is my own inability to receive text messages — on my MOBILE phone! I haven’t been able to send or receive texts since Feb 7th… and I HAVE paid my bill. I have to wrestle with my own service provider yet, and get that figured out. I am hoping to switch to some type of totally web-based phone service such as Google Voice… but once again, setting it up is a problem because they, too need to send a TEXT to your pre-existing phone number…! Arrrrrgh! Okay, so problem number 3 is more broad — just this indescribable head fog that I have been in off and on for about 2 weeks now. I keep feeling sick and otherwise “not all there”. I don’t know if it is the premenopause or food poisoning or the bad weather/low atmospheric pressure sitting over Texas and stealing away the lovely weather we had been having… Arrrgh again! The last problem is definitely the most longterm… my frustration over trying to balance my time and energy, pushing myself vs. relaxing and enjoying my Mate and our frugal life together… and a whole slew of related “troubles” including a burning desire to accomplish several “career” goals and gain some better financial freedom… along with a desire to help other people using my products and skillset… and that ever-present desire to be so flexible and “on top of things” that I can freely drop everything I am doing at any given moment and spend the rest of the day — or several days — just hanging out with my Mate, enjoying our freedom. No “arrrrgh” on that one… more like an “ahhhhh”. LOL 😉

 
Psalm 55 ERV

To the director: With instruments. A maskil of David. God, hear my prayer. Don’t ignore my cry for help. 
Please listen and answer me. Let me speak to you and tell you what upsets me. 
My enemies shout at me and threaten me. In their anger they attack me. They bring troubles crashing down on me. 
My heart is pounding inside me. I am afraid to die. 
I am trembling with fear. I am terrified! 
Oh, I wish I had wings like a dove. I would fly away and find a place to rest. 
I would go far into the desert and stay there. Selah 
I would run away. I would escape from this storm of trouble. 
My Lord, confuse their words and stop their plans. I see so much cruelty and fighting in this city. 
Day and night, in every neighborhood, the city is filled with evil and trouble. 
There is so much crime in the streets. People who hurt and cheat others are everywhere. 
If it were an enemy insulting me, I could bear it. If it were my enemies attacking me, I could hide. 
But it is you, the one so close to me, my companion, my good friend, who does this. 
We used to share our secrets with one another, as we walked through the crowds together in God’s Temple. 
I wish death would take my enemies by surprise! I wish the earth would open up and swallow them alive, because they plan such terrible things together. 
I will call to God for help, and the LORD will save me. 
I speak to God morning, noon, and night. I tell him what upsets me, and he listens to me! 
I have fought in many battles, but he has always rescued me and brought me back safely. 

God, who has always ruled as king, will hear me and punish my enemies. Selah But they will never change. They don’t fear and respect God. 
This one who was once my friend now attacks his friends. He is breaking every promise he made. 
His words about peace are as smooth as butter, but he has only war on his mind. His words are as slick as oil, but they cut like a knife. 
Give your worries to the LORD, and he will care for you. He will never let those who are good be defeated. 
But, God, you will send those liars and murderers to the grave. They will die before their life is half finished! As for me, I will put my trust in you. 

 
Lord, I sincerely feel like I HAVE fought in many battles, as mentioned in the verses above. To be honest, I feel rather wounded, temporarily weakened, like I could really use a break from the fighting. These last couple weeks have really taken a toll on me, and I still don’t know what has been causing it. I lift ALL my troubles up to you — just as David did — and I ask for your help. I ask you to help me rest in you, derive all of my strength from you, be guided and protected by you, and be found pleasing by you. I truly trust you completely, faithful Shepherd. Lead the way, and I shall follow. Amen.

 

Feb 28

Good morning, Father.
Thank you for the progress made yesterday, despite the mild case of food poisoning. Thank you for helping me feel so much better this morning, and please help my Mate continue to feel better throughout the day today. Thank you for our heaters and insulation in our little camper, so that this cold weather does not stop me from working, forced to huddle under blankets with my Mate all day, like we had to do last year, to keep warm. Although I must admit, that WAS rather pleasant, lol.

 
James 1:22-27 ERV

Do what God’s teaching says; don’t just listen and do nothing. When you only sit and listen, you are fooling yourselves. 
Hearing God’s teaching and doing nothing is like looking at your face in the mirror 
and doing nothing about what you saw. You go away and immediately forget how bad you looked. 
But when you look into God’s perfect law that sets people free, pay attention to it. If you do what it says, you will have God’s blessing. Never just listen to his teaching and forget what you heard. 
You might think you are a very religious person. But if your tongue is out of control, you are fooling yourself. Your careless talk makes your offerings to God worthless. 
The worship that God wants is this: caring for orphans or widows who need help and keeping yourself free from the world’s evil influence. This is the kind of worship that God accepts as pure and good. 

 

Feb 26

Hello, Father!
Okay, I am firmly back into nerd land, lol! I cannot seem to stop LEARNING, and building my understanding of so many different things at once, from history, religion, and anthropology to acoustics, engine technology, and materials science! There just doesn’t seem to be any limit to my interests and ability to LEARN! Just like my sons, if I could get PAID to learn, I’d have all the money I could ever need. Too bad we don’t live in the days of da Vinci and such, when nobles and kings paid their learned men a salary just for making their endless observations and experimentations!!! Yet today, knowledge is so much easier to obtain, and therefore to keep building…! Ah! I feel like my brain wants to explode, lol. Lord, I don’t know if I am being a fool or being distracted… or being prepared for a new way of gathering and presenting information… but I pray that you show me how to use my learning zeal to make an income… or at least to help other people! Sure, it is profoundly fun for me to learn… but I desire to have a way to make it more than just mere entertainment, Lord! Please give me wisdom, patience, and humility. Show me WHY you have made me with this bottomless pit style brain that just keeps wanting MORE INPUT, heeheehee.

 
2 Peter 1:3-8 ERV

Jesus has the power of God. And his power has given us everything we need to live a life devoted to God. We have these things because we know him. Jesus chose us by his glory and goodness, 
through which he also gave us the very great and rich gifts that he promised us. With these gifts you can share in being like God. And so you will escape the ruin that comes to people in the world because of the evil things they want. 
Because you have these blessings, do all you can to add to your life these things: to your faith add goodness; to your goodness add knowledge; 
to your knowledge add self-control; to your self-control add patience; to your patience add devotion to God; 
to your devotion add kindness toward your brothers and sisters in Christ, and to this kindness add love. 
If all these things are in you and growing, you will never fail to be useful to God. You will produce the kind of fruit that should come from your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. 

 
Lord, I thank you for giving me a love of learning and a quest for knowledge. I ask you to help me be humble and practice self-control, even in my learning. Show me how to be a good stewardess of the blessings and resources you have provided, from my awesome Mate and our little home on wheels, to my brain and body and will and spirit and TIME. Amen. 🙂

 

Feb 25

Romans 14:17-23 ERV

In God’s kingdom, what we eat and drink is not important. Here is what is important: a right way of life, peace, and joy—all from the Holy Spirit. 
Whoever serves Christ by living this way is pleasing God, and they will be accepted by others. 
So let’s try as hard as we can to do what will bring peace. Let’s do whatever will help each other grow stronger in faith. 
Don’t let the eating of food destroy the work of God. All food is right to eat, but it is wrong for anyone to eat something that hurts the faith of another person. 
It is better not to eat meat or drink wine or do anything else that hurts the faith of your brother or sister. 
You should keep your beliefs about these things a secret between yourself and God. It is a blessing to be able to do what you think is right without feeling guilty. 
But anyone who eats something without being sure it is right is doing wrong. That is because they did not believe it was right. And if you do anything that you believe is not right, it is sin. 

 
Lord, once again I am finding my heart is heavy and I need to send your Word out in front of me, even in this blog. I thank you for these verses that make it plain that not only are you aware of our need to hold our tongues and keep our faith to ourselves at times… but you even tell us to do so, in situations where speaking our mind “hurts the faith” of others. Father, I do not feel like I have the wisdom or discernment to know WHEN this is appropriate, so I ask you to guide me in this as you do in all other things. And I pray that you help me to become better at hearing you and obeying your Voice without allowing my temper or my fear or any of my other vices to get in the way. I sincerely desire to please you, Lord. Even when my heart hurts and I question both my value and my abilities. I still trust you completely, Lord Jesus. Help me to LIVE LIKE I BELIEVE. Amen.

 

Interesting comparison of verse 22 from above, between versions:
Romans 14:22
(ERV)  You should keep your beliefs about these things a secret between yourself and God. It is a blessing to be able to do what you think is right without feeling guilty.
(ISV)  As for the faith you do have, have it as your own conviction before God. How blessed is the person who has no reason to condemn himself because of what he approves!
(KJV)  Hast thou faith? have it to thyself before God. Happy is he that condemneth not himself in that thing which he alloweth.
(KJV+)  HastG2192 thouG4771 faith?G4102 haveG2192 it toG2596 thyselfG4572 beforeG1799 God.G2316 HappyG3107 is he that condemnethG2919 notG3361 himselfG1438 inG1722 that thing whichG3739 he alloweth.G1381
 
my literation (interpretation from Strong’s Greek definitions and usage):
“Do you have a conviction? Have it with yourself in the face of God. You are supremely blessed when you do NOT condemn yourself for doing the thing you have tested and found worthy of doing.”
–Thank you, Lord–

 

Feb 24

Good morning, Lord.
Thank you for a good night of sleep, and thank you that it is decently warm this morning, with the promise of sunshine today. Please help me follow you this day, please guide me in how to spend my time, and please help me be humble and teachable and willing to serve. Help me to let GO of any expectations or distracting desires, and just be grateful for what I have, right then in the moment. Please help my Mate with his struggles, and please be with each of my children and loved ones, to help them through their day as well. Amen.

 
Galatians 2:12-21 ERV

This is what happened: When Peter first came to Antioch, he ate and associated with the non-Jewish people. But when some Jewish men came from James, Peter separated himself from the non-Jews. He stopped eating with them, because he was afraid of the Jews who believe that all non-Jewish people must be circumcised. 
So Peter was a hypocrite. The other Jewish believers joined with him, so they were hypocrites too. Even Barnabas was influenced by what these Jewish believers did. 
They were not following the truth of the Good News. When I saw this, I spoke to Peter in front of everyone. I said, “Peter, you are a Jew, but you don’t live like one. You live like someone who is not a Jew. So why are you trying to force those who are not Jewish to live like Jews?” 
We are Jews by birth. We were not born “sinners,” as we call those who are not Jews. 
But we know that no one is made right with God by following the law. It is trusting in Jesus Christ that makes a person right with God. So we have put our faith in Christ Jesus, because we wanted to be made right with God. And we are right with him because we trusted in Christ—not because we followed the law. I can say this because no one can be made right with God by following the law. 
We Jews came to Christ to be made right with God, so it is clear that we were sinners too. Does this mean that Christ makes us sinners? Of course not. 
But I would be wrong to begin teaching again those things that I gave up. 
It was the law itself that caused me to end my life under the law. I died to the law so that I could live for God. I have been nailed to the cross with Christ. 
So I am not the one living now—it is Christ living in me. I still live in my body, but I live by faith in the Son of God. He is the one who loved me and gave himself to save me. 
I am not the one destroying the meaning of God’s grace. If following the law is how people are made right with God, then Christ did not have to die. 

 
Lord Jesus, please help me to trust in you more completely. Help me to cast aside everything else I can trust in, hope in, or rely upon, and instead build my reliance upon you. I accept that I may never be “right” with the world or with the fast food churches of the modern culture. I accept that I may forever live in poverty, always having what I NEED, but always going without some things I think I need but are only just empty desires. I know that you are ENOUGH — I need nothing else. Help me to LIVE LIKE I BELIEVE this day. Help me to be humble and not let my temper flare. Help me to allow YOU to defend me, and not try to defend myself. Give me eyes to see, that I may remember your Word and find my way through any dark spots this day. Amen. 🙂

 

Feb 23

Hello, Father.
Thank you for good sleep and good relaxation time, actually taking some time OFF and enjoying some entertainment outside of the daily amusement my Mate provides, lol. I can see how binge-watching a favored series could be addicting, but I am already eager to CREATE something, rather than just being entertained by something created by a large group of other people. Lord, I am getting fairly desperate to get enough money to order new contacts so that I can see well enough to work. I give that concern over into your capable hands, and ask for the wisdom and humility to do whatever is given me, to accomplish your will. Amen.

 
Matthew 6:31-34 ERV

“Don’t worry and say, ‘What will we eat?’ or ‘What will we drink?’ or ‘What will we wear?’ 
That’s what those people who don’t know God are always thinking about. Don’t worry, because your Father in heaven knows that you need all these things. 
What you should want most is God’s kingdom and doing what he wants you to do. Then he will give you all these other things you need. 
So don’t worry about tomorrow. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Tomorrow will have its own worries. 

 

 

Feb 21

Good morning, Father.
Thank you for the peace that pervades all this morning. Thank you for the humid, semi-warm air with overcast skies that may threaten our barbeque later today but right now just seems absolutely lovely! Thank you for the cat nestled against my hide, and the cedar waxwings whistling their feeding sounds in the trees nearby and overhead. Thank you for the gorge a stone’s throw away, and thank you for the great blue heron which has made the nearby pond his home. Thank you for my health, and the health of my Mate and each of my children. Please be with each of my sons as they work to move forward in their lives. Encourage their hearts, Lord, and give each of them a permanent and intimate relationship with you. Prepare my daughter for her 22nd birthday tomorrow, and please help her heart not grieve that she is far away from me and her brothers and her buddy, my Mate. Give her something special for her special day, Lord Jesus, and encourage her to draw near to you for all of her needs. Amen.

 
Isaiah 65:16-25 ERV

The Lord says, “People now ask blessings from the earth. But in the future they will ask blessings from the faithful God. People now trust in the power of the earth when they make a promise. But in the future they will trust in the God who is faithful. That’s because the troubles in the past will all be forgotten. They will be hidden from my sight.” 
“I am creating a new heaven and a new earth. The troubles of the past will be forgotten. No one will remember them. 
My people will be happy and rejoice forever and ever because of what I will make. I will make a Jerusalem that is full of joy, and I will make her people happy. 
“Then I will rejoice with Jerusalem. I will be happy with my people. There will never again be crying and sadness in that city. 
In that city there will never be a baby who lives only a few days, and every older person will live for a long, long time. A person who lives 100 years will be called young. And whoever doesn’t live that long will be considered cursed. 
“In that city whoever builds a house will live there; whoever plants a vineyard will eat the grapes from that garden. 
Never again will one person build a house and another person live there. Never again will one person plant a garden and another eat the fruit from it. My people will live as long as the trees. My chosen people will get full use of whatever they make. 
Never again will a woman suffer childbirth and have her baby die. Women will not fear childbirth. I, the LORD, will bless all my people and their children. 
I will answer them before they call for help. I will help them before they finish asking. 
Wolves and little lambs will eat together. Lions will eat hay like cattle, and snakes will eat only dust. They will not hurt or destroy each other on my holy mountain.” This is what the LORD said. 

 
Lord, often at times like these I can almost feel that other timeline, the way the earth WILL be, the way life WILL be. I feel the impurity of evil all around me, yet I feel the promise written in your creation. The cats, the trees, the breeze, the persistant GREEN — all of it as surely belonging to you and made for your glory as it ever was or will be. I thank you for giving us a promise of a time when all our own, individual work will be accomplished. I thank you for the promise of a life that is lived in such close proximity to you, without the negative influence of mankind upon your creation. And I thank you for the HOPE of sharing another, longer timeframe with my Mate, perhaps to build a house, grow a household, and plant gardens and vinyards together. And yet more than that, at this moment, I thank you for your mercy in THIS timeframe, helping us survive in this evil world and keep ourselves as separate from it as you allow to be possible at this time. I thank you for your Spirit which nourishes us, guides us, protects us, and sustains us. I thank you for your Touch, faithful Shepherd. Help me to know your Voice more surely all the time. Amen. 🙂

 

Feb 19

Good morning, Father.
I need to kinda cling to you for support right now again, staying close to HOME for help, lol. Noises are overwhelming me, echoing loudly, rattling my sore brain, and I feel a bit vulnerable, like I am standing on a precipice. I am trusting you to help me be strong enough to take whatever is given me, Lord. I know you will. Please help me get past this crazed-head problem and have a more “normal” day. I trust you completely, faithful Shepherd. I give myself into your capable care. Amen.

 
1 Peter 5:6-11 ERV

So be humble under God’s powerful hand. Then he will lift you up when the right time comes. 
Give all your worries to him, because he cares for you. 
Control yourselves and be careful! The devil is your enemy, and he goes around like a roaring lion looking for someone to attack and eat. 
Refuse to follow the devil. Stand strong in your faith. You know that your brothers and sisters all over the world are having the same sufferings that you have. 
Yes, you will suffer for a short time. But after that, God will make everything right. He will make you strong. He will support you and keep you from falling. He is the God who gives all grace. He chose you to share in his glory in Christ. That glory will continue forever. 
All power is his forever. Amen.