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Jan 20

Hello, Father.
Thank you for all the lessons learned this past week or more, while I struggled to survive through the flu of 2018! Thank you for new beginnings, fresh starts, and clearer sight. Thank you for humility and appreciation of the Little Things in life. Thank you for HOPE, that ever-present help that keeps me going when there seems to be little else to hang onto. Father, I lay my little self at your feet, a willing sacrifice of my time, my heart, my life for you. Please bring the next people forward to meet us, whomever you wish for us to go forth and help, and even to be helped by them as well. Please let it be someone whom you Love, someone who reflects your Love, someone who acknowledges you as the Source of their joy, their strength, their goodness. I look forward to meeting this person or these people, Lord. Please help me and my Mate to be humble, teachable, and willing to follow you and your ways. Don’t let us mess up your will for us, but help us to just keep looking to you for guidance and support. Amen.

Psalm 31:19-24 ERV

Lord, you have hidden away many wonderful things for your followers. You have done so many good things for those who trust in you. You have blessed them so that all the world can see. 
Others make plans to hurt them. They say such bad things about them. But you hide your people in your shelter and protect them. 
Praise the LORD, because he showed me how wonderful his faithful love is when the city was surrounded by enemies. 
I was afraid and said, “I am in a place where he cannot see me.” But I prayed to you, and you heard my loud cries for help. 
Love the LORD, all of you who are his loyal followers. The LORD protects those who are loyal to him. But he punishes those who brag about their own power. He gives them all the punishment they deserve. 
Be strong and brave, all of you who are waiting for the LORD’S help. 

Genesis 12:1-3 ERV

The LORD said to Abram, “Leave your country and your people. Leave your father’s family and go to the country that I will show you. 
I will build a great nation from you. I will bless you and make your name famous. People will use your name to bless other people. 
I will bless those who bless you, and I will curse those who curse you. I will use you to bless all the people on earth.” 

Lord, I do not know where you are leading us next, but I honestly do hope I will have more of a chance to get online and work on my websites again. I also pray for some place warm, with a bathroom and a good shower. A way to cook food would be nice as well, although cold stuff like sandwiches would be good enough. Thank you for the time we have had with a cookstove. I got to make several hot meals for my family — that was nice. I look forward to learning more each day, faithful Shepherd. Thank you for your provision and protection.


Jan 11

Hello, Lord.
I thank you, Father, for the awesome closeness with my Mate lately, as well as all the personal growth in each of us. Thank you for the opportunity each day to serve you, even when it is unclear how to do so. I am slowly learning more patience and trust, steadily learning the absolute value of your perfect timing. Lord, I put myself into your hands and ask you to guide me forward, cleanse me of the things within me that stand in the way of being found pleasing and faithful to you, prune away the things that only I want and that you do not want for me. Renew my heart and my mind, and create in me a clean heart. Amen.

Psalm 51:10

(ERV)  God, create a pure heart in me, and make my spirit strong again.
(ISV)  God, create a pure heart in me, and renew a right attitude within me.
(KJV)  Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me.

LOL, Fran’s interpretation, from Strong’s:
Lord, please build an unadulterated, bright and clear heart within me.
Rebuild an upright breath of Life at my core.

I need it. Thank you, my Shepherd. I trust you completely. Amen.


Jan 8

Hello, Father.
Thank you for a bit more time at the library, a bit of internet time that has been rare indeed and which may remain so for the near future. Father, I do not know what you are trying to teach me, or for what you are preparing me, but the events of the last few days have really got me questioning myself, oscillating from one extreme of courage and confidence, to the other extreme of feeling wounded and cursed. Please help me to just be patient with your process, and not even try to figure things out. Help me to just accept each moment as it comes, seeking out how best to serve you at that time. Help me to be calm and quiet, as best as I can be. Cleanse me of pride and help me to remember that I do NOT need to defend myself. I can trust you to protect me and provide for me. Thank you, faithful Shepherd. 🙂

1 Peter 3:3-6 ERV

It is not fancy hair, gold jewelry, or fine clothes that should make you beautiful. 
No, your beauty should come from inside you—the beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit. That beauty will never disappear. It is worth very much to God. 
It was the same with the holy women who lived long ago and followed God. They made themselves beautiful in that same way. They were willing to serve their husbands. 
I am talking about women like Sarah. She obeyed Abraham, her husband, and called him her master. And you women are true children of Sarah if you always do what is right and are not afraid.

Lord, you know that my greatest desires in this life are to be faithful to you, and for those whom I love to be FREE and to have a personal relationship with you. I thank you for every day that my children, myself, and my Mate have a chance to grow closer to you, and more FREE. Please help me to appreciate each day as a gift from you. Help me to stop being influenced by things around me and the crazy emotions inside of me. Help me to rest in YOU and upon the stability of your Word, your will, your unchanging faithfulness and mercy. Amen.


Jan 5

Hello, Father!
Thank you for six years now of being married to my favorite of all your creations. Thank you for the awesome night of closeness and growth and new understandings we shared when there was time, a few nights ago. Please help us both in our separate work today, from library time to mucking out stalls for me, and from finding new tires for our truck to painting a wall for him. Lord, I put our volatile relationship into your capable hands, and I ask you to protect it and intervene on our behalf, keep us close, keep us together. I do not want my Mate to wander this dark world alone, and I do not want to be alone in it, either. Although we both could quite easily exist just fine without each other, it really seems you have put us together for a purpose, and are using us as a TEAM to reach other people, sharing your Love and being a witness everywhere we go, with everyone we meet. I know we are not perfect, but we strive to be humble, and teachable, and willing to serve you at all times. Help us to grow in you, together. Amen.

Ephesians 5:22-33 ERV

Wives, be willing to serve your husbands the same as the Lord. 
A husband is the head of his wife, just as Christ is the head of the church. Christ is the Savior of the church, which is his body. 
The church serves under Christ, so it is the same with you wives. You should be willing to serve your husbands in everything. 
Husbands, love your wives the same as Christ loved the church and gave his life for it. 
He died to make the church holy. He used the telling of the Good News to make the church clean by washing it with water. 
Christ died so that he could give the church to himself like a bride in all her beauty. He died so that the church could be holy and without fault, with no evil or sin or any other thing wrong in it. 
And husbands should love their wives like that. They should love their wives as they love their own bodies. The man who loves his wife loves himself, 
because no one ever hates his own body, but feeds and takes care of it. And that is what Christ does for the church 
because we are parts of his body. 

The Scriptures say, “That is why a man will leave his father and mother and join his wife, and the two people will become one.” 
That secret truth is very important—I am talking about Christ and the church. 
But each one of you must love his wife as he loves himself. And a wife must respect her husband.

Father, please bless my awesome son whose birthday is today, and likewise bless my Mate’s awesome son who was also born on this day. Thank you for your wonderful sense of humor, Lord, giving us each a son born exactly one year apart, later to also be the day we got married. I do hope to one day have a celebratory “winter bash” that sees all 4 of us in one place, joyously celebrating two birthdays and one anniversary, lol. Thank you, Shepherd, for leading us this far, and thank you for guiding each one of us forward in your will each day, protecting us and providing for our physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual needs. Amen. Lead on, faithful Shepherd! 😀


Jan 4

Good morning, Father.
Thank you for this brief time of internet access, and thank you for the amazing closeness and growth between my Mate and myself these last couple days. Please intervene in our situation, give us patience, wisdom, and courage to know and do your will. We do not know where we will be sleeping this night, but there are a few possibilities, and I pray that you put us somewhere that I can have full access to a convenient bathroom while I go through these difficult and often painful times of pre-menopause and digestive instability. Thank you for my health in all other things, and thank you for all the awesome people who have encouraged me this week. Amen.

Hebrews 12:3-14 ERV

Think about Jesus. He patiently endured the angry insults that sinful people were shouting at him. Think about him so that you won’t get discouraged and stop trying. 
You are struggling against sin, but you have not had to give up your life for the cause. 
You are children of God, and he speaks words of comfort to you. You have forgotten these words: “My child, don’t think the Lord’s discipline is worth nothing, and don’t stop trying when he corrects you. 
The Lord disciplines everyone he loves; he punishes everyone he accepts as a child.” 
So accept sufferings like a father’s discipline. God does these things to you like a father correcting his children. You know that all children are disciplined by their fathers. 
So, if you never receive the discipline that every child must have, you are not true children and don’t really belong to God. 
We have all had fathers here on earth who corrected us with discipline. And we respected them. So it is even more important that we accept discipline from the Father of our spirits. If we do this, we will have life. 
Our fathers on earth disciplined us for a short time in the way they thought was best. But God disciplines us to help us so that we can be holy like him. 
We don’t enjoy discipline when we get it. It is painful. But later, after we have learned our lesson from it, we will enjoy the peace that comes from doing what is right. 
You have become weak, so make yourselves strong again. 
Live in the right way so that you will be saved and your weakness will not cause you to be lost. 
Try to live in peace with everyone. And try to keep your lives free from sin. Anyone whose life is not holy will never see the Lord.


Jan 1 2018

Hello, Father!
Woot! The beginning of my third year writing on this blog… I wonder how long it will continue.
Thank you, Lord, for all the help my family and friends have given to me and my Mate this week, and thank you for the new people I’ve met just recently. I thank you especially for all the encouraging words, all the love and kindness and compassion shown to me since my living situation changed a few days ago. Thank you for the opportunity to meet a very nice couple who wants to help (and maybe we can help them just as much!), and thank you for this new person who is offering a live-in job, fixing up an apartment to rent, on a horse farm! I am excited to see what you will do with us in the coming days and weeks, Lord. Thank you for ALWAYS coming through for me, never letting me down, always rescuing me from my own self and my occasional despair and loneliness. Thank you for the new insights and understandings and closeness shared with my Mate these last dozen hours or so, and please be with my daughter this week as she prepares for her own new life! 😀

Psalm 118:21-29 ERV

Lord, I thank you for answering my prayer. I thank you for saving me. 
The stone that the builders rejected became the cornerstone. 
The LORD made this happen, and we think it is wonderful! 
This is the day the LORD has made. Let us rejoice and be happy today! 
The people say, “Praise the LORD! The LORD saved us! 
Welcome to the one who comes in the name of the LORD.” The priests answer, “We welcome you to the LORD’S house! 
The LORD is God, and he accepts us. Tie up the lamb for the sacrifice and carry it to the horns of the altar.” 
Lord, you are my God, and I thank you. My God, I praise you! 
Praise the LORD because he is good. His faithful love will last forever. 


Dec 30

Good morning, Father!
It is so very nice to have internet and time to write again, after about a week without!! I do not know why my phone’s mobile data is no longer working, but if it be your will, I ask you to show me how to fix it (again), so I can be more faithful to this little prayer blog and its readers.
Father, I thank you for all you’ve brought me through this long and difficult month. Thank you for removing most of the worst of the situation, and giving me HOPE for change — soon! Thank you for helping me endure long boring days of stagnancy, waiting for someone else’s holiday, feeling stinky and pretty worthless. Thank you for bringing things to a head, so I could break out and be brave enough to change things myself, without waiting for others to decide to take action. Thank you for my courage, my faith, and all the wonderful, awesome people who have been encouraging and helping me these last 18 hours or so. Please prepare both myself and the woman I am meeting with today, and if it be your will for us to live together and help each other out for a time, please let your will be done and don’t let either one of us or anyone else wreck your plans. Help me to be a witness or at least an encouragement to her, even if I never see her again. Please help me to remain humble and kind, forgiving easily and being slower to anger. Please help my husband learn to control his own temper, so that I can feel emotionally safe around him again. I love my Mate more than everything else in this world, Lord, but his sharp tongue is too much for me to bear this long, this cold. Please help us both, Father. I trust you completely. Amen.

James 1:19-27 ERV

My dear brothers and sisters, always be more willing to listen than to speak. Keep control of your anger. 
Anger does not help you live the way God wants. 
So get rid of everything evil in your lives—every kind of wrong you do. Be humble and accept God’s teaching that is planted in your hearts. This teaching can save you. 
Do what God’s teaching says; don’t just listen and do nothing. When you only sit and listen, you are fooling yourselves. 
Hearing God’s teaching and doing nothing is like looking at your face in the mirror 
and doing nothing about what you saw. You go away and immediately forget how bad you looked. 
But when you look into God’s perfect law that sets people free, pay attention to it. If you do what it says, you will have God’s blessing. Never just listen to his teaching and forget what you heard. 
You might think you are a very religious person. But if your tongue is out of control, you are fooling yourself. Your careless talk makes your offerings to God worthless. 
The worship that God wants is this: caring for orphans or widows who need help and keeping yourself free from the world’s evil influence. This is the kind of worship that God accepts as pure and good.


Dec 24

Hello, Father.
Thank you for a nice shower, some good time with my Mate, and lots of good times with his family. Thank you for giving my daughter a new direction in life, and thank you for helping me be patient in my own work and growth. Father, I thank you for awareness, for sensitivity to your Heart and your Spirit, for a chance to be found pleasing to you. Help me to shine your Love to those around me, and to put down my pride and my fears, so that I do not ruin your witness in me.

Psalm 14 AMPC

THE [empty-headed] fool has said in his heart, There is no God. They are corrupt, they have done abominable deeds; there is none that does good or right. [Rom. 3:10.] The Lord looked down from heaven upon the children of men to see if there were any who understood, dealt wisely, and sought after God, inquiring for and of Him and requiring Him [of vital necessity]. They are all gone aside, they have all together become filthy; there is none that does good or right, no, not one. [Rom. 3:11, 12.] Have all the workers of iniquity no knowledge, who eat up my people as they eat bread and who do not call on the Lord? There they shall be in great fear [literally–dreading a dread], for God is with the generation of the [uncompromisingly] righteous (those upright and in right standing with Him). You [evildoers] would put to shame and confound the plans of the poor and patient, but the Lord is his safe refuge. Oh, that the salvation of Israel would come out of Zion! When the Lord shall restore the fortunes of His people, then Jacob shall rejoice and Israel shall be glad. [Rom. 11:25-27.]


Dec 22

Lord, I thank you for the measure of hope you have given me this morning. Thank you for visible progress in some areas, and thank you for providing me with a break in the most painful area. Please help my heart recover and gain some lightness and joy before I meet the rest of my husband’s family. Help me to lay aside my own struggles, to allow you to use me in any way you like, even just as a cheerful person in the background. Amen.

John 3:17‭-‬21 AMPC

For God did not send the Son into the world in order to judge (to reject, to condemn, to pass sentence on) the world, but that the world might find salvation and be made safe and sound through Him. He who believes in Him [who clings to, trusts in, relies on Him] is not judged [he who trusts in Him never comes up for judgment; for him there is no rejection, no condemnation–he incurs no damnation]; but he who does not believe (cleave to, rely on, trust in Him) is judged already [he has already been convicted and has already received his sentence] because he has not believed in and trusted in the name of the only begotten Son of God. [He is condemned for refusing to let his trust rest in Christ’s name.] The [basis of the] judgment (indictment, the test by which men are judged, the ground for the sentence) lies in this: the Light has come into the world, and people have loved the darkness rather than and more than the Light, for their works (deeds) were evil. [Isa. 5:20.] For every wrongdoer hates (loathes, detests) the Light, and will not come out into the Light but shrinks from it, lest his works (his deeds, his activities, his conduct) be exposed and reproved. But he who practices truth [who does what is right] comes out into the Light; so that his works may be plainly shown to be what they are–wrought with God [divinely prompted, done with God’s help, in dependence upon Him].

Father, I thank you for making me able to learn and practice new skills, and I ask you to continue to guide me through every step of every day. Please be with each of my three awesome sons during this season of family togetherness, comfort and encourage their hearts, and let them feel loved and happy. Thank you for giving me some time with my daughter, and thank you for her upcoming adventures! Please protect her and give her courage and joy, and continue to prepare her for the things you have for her, Lord. Amen.


Dec 21

Hello, Father.
You see my heart, my tears, my sorrows, my struggles. They don’t seem very important to anyone, they just hurt. No matter how freely or cheerfully I give to others, there always seems to be a desperate need for me to run to you for comfort and encouragement. I guess that’s the way it should be. Lord, please strengthen me.

1 John 4:9‭-‬18 AMPC

In this the love of God was made manifest (displayed) where we are concerned: in that God sent His Son, the only begotten or unique [Son], into the world so that we might live through Him. In this is love: not that we loved God, but that He loved us and sent His Son to be the propitiation (the atoning sacrifice) for our sins. Beloved, if God loved us so [very much], we also ought to love one another. No man has at any time [yet] seen God. But if we love one another, God abides (lives and remains) in us and His love (that love which is essentially His) is brought to completion (to its full maturity, runs its full course, is perfected) in us! By this we come to know (perceive, recognize, and understand) that we abide (live and remain) in Him and He in us: because He has given (imparted) to us of His [Holy] Spirit. And [besides] we ourselves have seen (have deliberately and steadfastly contemplated) and bear witness that the Father has sent the Son [as the] Savior of the world. Anyone who confesses (acknowledges, owns) that Jesus is the Son of God, God abides (lives, makes His home) in him and he [abides, lives, makes his home] in God. And we know (understand, recognize, are conscious of, by observation and by experience) and believe (adhere to and put faith in and rely on) the love God cherishes for us. God is love, and he who dwells and continues in love dwells and continues in God, and God dwells and continues in him. In this [union and communion with Him] love is brought to completion and attains perfection with us, that we may have confidence for the day of judgment [with assurance and boldness to face Him], because as He is, so are we in this world. There is no fear in love [dread does not exist], but full-grown (complete, perfect) love turns fear out of doors and expels every trace of terror! For fear brings with it the thought of punishment, and [so] he who is afraid has not reached the full maturity of love [is not yet grown into love’s complete perfection].

Lord, I give to you all the pain inside my heart. Please take it, remove it from me so that it cannot leak out and hurt others. Fill me with your Love instead. I trust you completely, faithful Shepherd. Amen.


Dec 20

Lord, you see my fears, my hopes, my vulnerabilities. You see what I am facing today, and I thank you for what you have already lead me through. I know I can trust you, and that you are truly the only thing I need to be safe, and fulfilled, and joyous. I thank you for faithfully caring for me, this whole long and difficult life I have lived. I thank you for beginning to show me this year that family need not be a dirty word, and that I am not the outcast I once thought myself to be. Father, please continue to prepare me for whatever you have for me to do yet in this life, and please guide me in what to do for you today, how to best use my time for you. Amen.

Philippians 1:21-25 ERV

To me, the only important thing about living is Christ. And even death would be for my benefit. 
If I continue living here on earth, I will be able to work for the Lord. But what would I choose—to live or to die? I don’t know. 
It would be a hard choice. Sometimes I want to leave this life and be with Christ. That would be much better for me; 
however, you people need me here alive. 
I am sure of this, so I know that I will stay here and be with you to help you grow and have joy in your faith. 

Lord, I really do not feel like I am able to help anyone at all right now. Perhaps I am just discouraged, or lacking in focus. Perhaps I am just humble and feeling like the foolish little human I am. Either way, I am willing to live if you will use me for your good. I look forward to an eternal rest, and especially to a NEW time when I can labor endlessly, exploring all that I can dream up, and watching my great-grandchildren become grandparents — when your people live as long as the trees:

Isaiah 65:22 ERV

Never again will one person build a house and another person live there. Never again will one person plant a garden and another eat the fruit from it. My people will live as long as the trees. My chosen people will get full use of whatever they make.


Dec 19

Thank you, Father, for another opportunity to spend a day at the library, and thank you for helping me concentrate and finally finish a task that I have been working on at various times over the past few months! Now, I fear there are new obstacles and frustrations and hangups, but I trust that you will lead me through each one if I only just patiently follow your lead. Thank you, Lord, for your patience with little me, and thank you for all the little lessons I am learning, as well as the big ones that I cannot quite see in full as yet — too close to them, lol.

Psalm 119:28-39 ERV

I am sad and tired. Say the word, and make me strong again. 
Don’t let me live a lie. Guide me with your teachings. 
I have chosen to be loyal to you.
I respect your laws. 
I follow your rules closely, LORD. Don’t let me be put to shame. 
I do my best to follow your commands, because you are the one who gives me the desire. 
LORD, teach me your laws, and I will always follow them. 
Help me understand your teachings, and I will follow them. Obeying them will be my greatest desire. 
Help me follow your commands, because that makes me happy. 
Give me the desire to follow your rules, not the desire to get rich. 
Don’t let me look at worthless things. Help me live your way. 
Do what you promised me, your servant, so that people will respect you. 
Take away the shame I fear. Your laws are good. 

Lord, I am unsure what to work on next, since I have finally finished that longstanding task. There are several things I feel I could or even should do, but I want to spend my time and energy accomplishing whatever your will is for me. Please guide me with your Holy Spirit, and put before me the task that you would have me to do next. Guide me in how to best use my time, efficiently and faithfully for you. Please be near those whom I love, and give a special blessing to those who read this blog and the one person who faithfully donates to me each month. I don’t know who it is or what their purpose is, but I ask you to reward them an hundredfold, bless them in some special way that only YOU know they need. Amen.


Dec 17

Lord, I gotta admit, these lessons I am learning lately are pretty intense, and I am not even sure I understand much of any of it. When I think I see something clearly, it seems that a contradiction occurs and I am back to simply not knowing, feeling lost. I thank you that you are Faithful, and I can trust in you. Please help me walk forward safely through this time of blindness, or turn on a Light to help me see the path. Either way, I trust you, Shepherd. Help me to stay humble, and teachable, and willing. Amen.

Jeremiah 32:17‭-‬20 AMPC

Alas, Lord God! Behold, You have made the heavens and the earth by Your great power and by Your outstretched arm! There is nothing too hard or too wonderful for You– You Who show loving-kindness to thousands but recompense the iniquity of the fathers into the bosoms of their children after them. The great, the mighty God; the Lord of hosts is His name– Great [are You] in counsel and mighty in deeds, Whose eyes are open to all the ways of the sons of men, to reward or repay each one according to his ways and according to the fruit of his doings, Who wrought signs and wonders in the land of Egypt, and even to this day [continues to do so], both in Israel and among other men, and made for Yourself a name, as at this day.


Dec 16

Good morning, Father.
Thank you, Lord, for helping me through that rather tortuous day, and thank you for counseling me in my bed this morning before I got up, leading me into a healthy mindset and focus for this day. Please help me to stay faithful to your leading, and not be blown off course by my own emotions. Please keep reminding me that I do NOT have to defend myself. Amen.

James 1:17‭-‬21 AMPC

Every good gift and every perfect (free, large, full) gift is from above; it comes down from the Father of all [that gives] light, in [the shining of] Whom there can be no variation [rising or setting] or shadow cast by His turning [as in an eclipse]. And it was of His own [free] will that He gave us birth [as sons] by [His] Word of Truth, so that we should be a kind of firstfruits of His creatures [a sample of what He created to be consecrated to Himself]. Understand [this], my beloved brethren. Let every man be quick to hear [a ready listener], slow to speak, slow to take offense and to get angry. For man’s anger does not promote the righteousness God [wishes and requires]. So get rid of all uncleanness and the rampant outgrowth of wickedness, and in a humble (gentle, modest) spirit receive and welcome the Word which implanted and rooted [in your hearts] contains the power to save your souls.

Father, I thank you for all the perfect gifts you have given me in this life. Please help me to focus on those rather than on things it FEELS like I need. I know that you are the Source of all good, and all my true needs are met in you. Father, please care for each of my children and their needs as well, and please bless my friends and family in Iowa, in Denton, and in New York. Amen.


Dec 15

Lord, I feel so raw, so physically sick, so emotionally wounded. It is hard to have much hope today. Things feel very dark and harsh, and your Love and kindness feel too far away in the future to be of much encouragement right now. Thank you, though, for reminding me over and over that I do NOT need to defend myself. Help me to just trust in you, and not to feel frozen in lonely despair.


Colossians 3:12‭-‬15 AMPC

Clothe yourselves therefore, as God’s own chosen ones (His own picked representatives), [who are] purified and holy and well-beloved [by God Himself, by putting on behavior marked by] tenderhearted pity and mercy, kind feeling, a lowly opinion of yourselves, gentle ways, [and] patience [which is tireless and long-suffering, and has the power to endure whatever comes, with good temper]. Be gentle and forbearing with one another and, if one has a difference (a grievance or complaint) against another, readily pardoning each other; even as the Lord has [freely] forgiven you, so must you also [forgive]. And above all these [put on] love and enfold yourselves with the bond of perfectness [which binds everything together completely in ideal harmony]. And let the peace (soul harmony which comes) from Christ rule (act as umpire continually) in your hearts [deciding and settling with finality all questions that arise in your minds, in that peaceful state] to which as [members of Christ’s] one body you were also called [to live]. And be thankful (appreciative), [giving praise to God always].


Dec 12

Hello, Lord.
Thank you for the many opportunities today to show mercy and compassion to others, and thank you for the chance to help my mother-in-law prepare her new house for holiday guests. Thank you for all the humbling learning experiences I have had lately, and thank you for helping me to not get as sick as most of the people around me. Please heal my Mate, make him strong again, so he can enjoy the upcoming live jam sessions! Please continue to keep me healthy and strong enough to serve everyone around me, helping where I am needed and encouraging others in any way I can. Thank you for using me, faithful Shepherd. Amen.

2 Corinthians 13:3‭-‬11 AMPC

Since you desire and seek [perceptible] proof of the Christ Who speaks in and through me. [For He] is not weak and feeble in dealing with you, but is a mighty power within you; For though He was crucified in weakness, yet He goes on living by the power of God. And though we too are weak in Him [as He was humanly weak], yet in dealing with you [we shall show ourselves] alive and strong in [fellowship with] Him by the power of God. Examine and test and evaluate your own selves to see whether you are holding to your faith and showing the proper fruits of it. Test and prove yourselves [not Christ]. Do you not yourselves realize and know [thoroughly by an ever-increasing experience] that Jesus Christ is in you–unless you are [counterfeits] disapproved on trial and rejected? But I hope you will recognize and know that we are not disapproved on trial and rejected. But I pray to God that you may do nothing wrong, not in order that we [our teaching] may appear to be approved, but that you may continue doing right, [though] we may seem to have failed and be unapproved. For we can do nothing against the Truth [not serve any party or personal interest], but only for the Truth [which is the Gospel]. For we are glad when we are weak (unapproved) and you are really strong. And this we also pray for: your all-round strengthening and perfecting of soul. So I write these things while I am absent from you, that when I come to you, I may not have to deal sharply in my use of the authority which the Lord has given me [to be employed, however] for building [you] up and not for tearing [you] down. Finally, brethren, farewell (rejoice)! Be strengthened (perfected, completed, made what you ought to be); be encouraged and consoled and comforted; be of the same [agreeable] mind one with another; live in peace, and [then] the God of love [Who is the Source of affection, goodwill, love, and benevolence toward men] and the Author and Promoter of peace will be with you.

Jesus, please shine the Light of your Truth upon me, help me to examine myself, and give me the courage to lay aside my own hopes and dreams and plans, and fully embrace what you have chosen for me. Thank you, Lord, for your mercy and grace. Please protect my Mate and my children. Amen.


Dec 10

Good morning, Father!
Thank you for almost two full years on this blog, the first year without a single missed day, the second not quite that perfect, lol. Stll, despite missed days, I really think I have grown more these last two years than during any other time period of my life thus far, and I sincerely thank you for all the struggles and triumphs, ups and downs that have all been opportunities to learn and to grow. I thank you for humbling me and showing me over and over how very little I actually NEED, and how very MUCH I can actually take! I am still amazed at the ever-growing list of things you’ve helped me face, Lord, that were previously in the pile labeled “I can’t”. It has not all been fun, and much of it has been intensely uncomfortable, but it has all been worth it. Please continue your work in me, faithful Shepherd. I trust you completely.

Ephesians 2:8‭-‬10‭, ‬18‭-‬22 AMPC

For it is by free grace (God’s unmerited favor) that you are saved (delivered from judgment and made partakers of Christ’s salvation) through [your] faith. And this [salvation] is not of yourselves [of your own doing, it came not through your own striving], but it is the gift of God; Not because of works [not the fulfillment of the Law’s demands], lest any man should boast. [It is not the result of what anyone can possibly do, so no one can pride himself in it or take glory to himself.] For we are God’s [own] handiwork (His workmanship), recreated in Christ Jesus, [born anew] that we may do those good works which God predestined (planned beforehand) for us [taking paths which He prepared ahead of time], that we should walk in them [living the good life which He prearranged and made ready for us to live]. For it is through Him that we both [whether far off or near] now have an introduction (access) by one [Holy] Spirit to the Father [so that we are able to approach Him]. Therefore you are no longer outsiders (exiles, migrants, and aliens, excluded from the rights of citizens), but you now share citizenship with the saints (God’s own people, consecrated and set apart for Himself); and you belong to God’s [own] household. You are built upon the foundation of the apostles and prophets with Christ Jesus Himself the chief Cornerstone. In Him the whole structure is joined (bound, welded) together harmoniously, and it continues to rise (grow, increase) into a holy temple in the Lord [a sanctuary dedicated, consecrated, and sacred to the presence of the Lord]. In Him [and in fellowship with one another] you yourselves also are being built up [into this structure] with the rest, to form a fixed abode (dwelling place) of God in (by, through) the Spirit.


Dec 9

Thank you, thank you, thank you Lord for this awesome time at the LIBRARY!! I am excited to have several hours to devote to my own work and learning privileges again — WOOT! Father, I give you my time, my mind, my hands, my heart. Please guide me in how to pace myself and to accomplish whatever YOU desire for me to do, rather than what I may THINK I need to do. Help me to appreciate whatever amount of time I get here today, and please help it sustain me through these difficult days and cold nights. Help me to appreciate all the blessings I have right now, including an awesome Mate and time spent with his family. Thank you for helping me to make some things more friendly and usable, and for helping me establish some of my “creature comforts” which help me feel a bit more stable. 🙂

Colossians 3:23-25 ERV

In all the work you are given, do the best you can. Work as though you are working for the Lord, not any earthly master. 
Remember that you will receive your reward from the Lord, who will give you what he promised his people. Yes, you are serving Christ. He is your real Master. 
Remember that anyone who does wrong will be punished for that wrong. And the Lord treats everyone the same.

Lord, you see all that is in me, all that has happened to me, all the decisions I’ve made, all the things my heart desires to do, and even all the things I will and will not accomplish in this life. I have everything I need, for you are the Source of all good, my Provider and Protector. Show me how to use what you’ve given me to serve you this day, and help me to become more fully equipped to serve your people in the ways that you choose. Amen.


Dec 8

Hello, Father!
Thank you so much for the healing and growth and encouragement this day. Thank you for helping me sleep for nine hours pretty straight right through the coldest night, down into the low twenties, sleeping in the popup camper. Thank you for helping me prepare with layers of clothing and blankets and hoodie that together made me stay plenty warm and cozy and able to breathe warm enough air so I didn’t get a cough or even get chilled! And now, the nights are supposed to be at least 5 to 10 degrees warmer, so I feel like I have faced the worst and made it through — smooth sailing ahead, lol.

1 Timothy 4:7-10 ERV

People tell silly stories that don’t agree with God’s truth. Don’t follow what these stories teach. But teach yourself to be devoted to God. 
Training your body helps you in some ways. But devotion to God helps you in every way. It brings you blessings in this life and in the future life too. 
Here is a true statement that should be accepted without question: 
We hope in the living God, the Savior of all people. In particular, he is the Savior of all those who believe in him. This is why we work and struggle.

Lord, I thank you for these quiet moments in the camper by myself, and I thank you for the good times (and difficult times) here with my Mate as well. Thank you for hard lessons learned, opportunities to see things in new perspectives, and directions of growth and change. Please help me to keep learning, and please show me how to use my time most wisely and lovingly. Help me to stay humble and teachable and willing to serve. Amen.

Father, I also lift each of my children up to you this day. My oldest son seems to have some heartache that needs your attention. Please encourage him to keep looking to you. Be his hero, his rescuer, his friend. Please touch each of my other sons as well as my daughter, too. Give them each peace and lead them into a relationship with you. Help each of my children to come to know you as the faithful Shepherd that you are. Thank you, Lord Jesus. Amen.


Dec 6

Hello, Father.
Thank you for being near me, guiding me through each step of each day. Thank you for tender moments shared with your Spirit, sometimes with my Mate as well. Thank you for challenges and growth, and opportunities to serve you and your people. Father, please help us through the next couple days with freezing temps and drizzling rain. Show me how you would choose for me to spend my time and energy. Guide me in the path you would have me to walk, and help me to stay humble, teachable, and willing to serve.

1 Samuel 2:2‭-‬9 AMPC

There is none holy like the Lord, there is none besides You; there is no Rock like our God. Talk no more so very proudly; let not arrogance go forth from your mouth, for the Lord is a God of knowledge, and by Him actions are weighed. The bows of the mighty are broken, and those who stumbled are girded with strength. Those who were full have hired themselves out for bread, but those who were hungry have ceased to hunger. The barren has borne seven, but she who has many children languishes and is forlorn. The Lord slays and makes alive; He brings down to Sheol and raises up. The Lord makes poor and makes rich; He brings low and He lifts up. He raises up the poor out of the dust and lifts up the needy from the ash heap, to make them sit with nobles and inherit the throne of glory. For the pillars of the earth are the Lord’s, and He has set the world upon them. He will guard the feet of His godly ones, but the wicked shall be silenced and perish in darkness; for by strength shall no man prevail.