Feb 21

Hello, Father.
Thank you so much for healing and hope. Thank you for ALL your awesome mercies, Lord! I would so much rather be broke and homeless and relying upon you for every tiny little thing, than to think myself secure due to my position, my income, my connections, or even my own “goodness”. I thank you for making me humble enough to realize that I truly do need you, and yet I actually DESERVE nothing from you. Thank you for having mercy upon me, Lord, and pruning unnecessary things out of my life and my heart, so that I can more freely serve you. Thank you for giving me faith, and teaching me to be faithful. You are awesome, Lord, and I trust you completely. Amen.

Romans 10:11-21 ERV

Yes, the Scriptures say, “Anyone who trusts in him will never be disappointed.” 
It says this because there is no difference between those who are Jews and those who are not. The same Lord is the Lord of all people. And he richly blesses everyone who looks to him for help. 
Yes, “everyone who trusts in the Lord will be saved.” 
But before people can pray to the Lord for help, they must believe in him. And before they can believe in the Lord, they must hear about him. And for anyone to hear about the Lord, someone must tell them. 
And before anyone can go and tell them, they must be sent. As the Scriptures say, “How wonderful it is to see someone coming to tell good news!” 
But not all the people accepted that good news. Isaiah said, “Lord, who believed what we told them?” 
So faith comes from hearing the Good News. And people hear the Good News when someone tells them about Christ. 
But I ask, “Did those people not hear the Good News?” Yes, they heard—as the Scriptures say, “Their voices went out all around the world. Their words went everywhere in the world.” 
Again I ask, “Did the people of Israel not understand?” Yes, they did understand. First, Moses says this for God: “I will use those who are not really a nation to make you jealous. I will use a nation that does not understand to make you angry.” 
Then Isaiah is bold enough to say this for God: “The people who were not looking for me— they are the ones who found me. I made myself known to those who did not ask for me.” 
But about the people of Israel God says, “All day long I stood ready to accept those people, but they are stubborn and refuse to obey me.” 

Lord, I give my crazy heart and my crazy situation to you. One moment, I feel I could be completely happy and content and even joyous, homeless and living under a bridge (again) having lost everything I have. But the next thing I know, I feel like a small child being compressed in a vice, and I don’t know if I will last another moment. And then I grow calm, and feel safe and protected by you again. Life is very changeable and uncertain right now, Lord. I ask for your peace, and I ask for your guidance and support. I trust you, Shepherd. Amen.


Feb 20

Hello, Father.
Thank you for all the fellowship and growth, and thank you for taking care of us. Please intervene to make your will be done in our lives, and please guide us in following you. Amen.

James 1:2-6 ERV

My brothers and sisters, you will have many kinds of trouble. But this gives you a reason to be very happy. 
You know that when your faith is tested, you learn to be patient in suffering. 
If you let that patience work in you, the end result will be good. You will be mature and complete. You will be all that God wants you to be. 
Do any of you need wisdom? Ask God for it. He is generous and enjoys giving to everyone. So he will give you wisdom. 
But when you ask God, you must believe. Don’t doubt him. Whoever doubts is like a wave in the sea that is blown up and down by the wind. 

James 3:13-18 ERV

Are there any among you who are really wise and understanding? Then you should show your wisdom by living right. You should do what is good with humility. A wise person does not boast. 
If you are selfish and have bitter jealousy in your hearts, you have no reason to boast. Your boasting is a lie that hides the truth. 
That kind of “wisdom” does not come from God. That “wisdom” comes from the world. It is not spiritual. It is from the devil. 
Where there is jealousy and selfishness, there will be confusion and every kind of evil. 
But the wisdom that comes from God is like this: First, it is pure. It is also peaceful, gentle, and easy to please. This wisdom is always ready to help people who have trouble and to do good for others. This wisdom is always fair and honest. 
People who work for peace in a peaceful way get the blessings that come from right living. 


Feb 19

Lord, the sun is not up, yet I am up, hurting and too lonely to sleep. Father, I ask you to help me be humble, and not take my pain out on anyone around me — including myself! Oh faithful Shepherd, I lift my heart to you and ask you to comfort me in my sorrow. Restore my strength and make me stable, resting on YOU. Help me to remember that you alone are ENOUGH and I really do not need any human or their words or their touch or even their understanding, in order to be STRONG. All I need is you. Thank you for sustaining your people and giving us all that we truly need, Father. Thank you for allowing me to rest upon you. Amen.

Psalm 118:14-24 ERV

The LORD is my strength and my reason for singing. He saved me! 
You can hear the victory celebration in the homes of those who live right. The LORD has shown his great power again! 
The LORD’S arm is raised in victory. The LORD has shown his great power again. 
I will live and not die, and I will tell what the LORD has done. 
The LORD punished me, but he did not let me die. 
Gates of goodness, open for me, and I will come in and worship the LORD. 
Those are the LORD’S gates, and only good people can go through them. 
Lord, I thank you for answering my prayer. I thank you for saving me. 
The stone that the builders rejected became the cornerstone. 
The LORD made this happen, and we think it is wonderful! 
This is the day the LORD has made. Let us rejoice and be happy today!

Lord, I can feel my heart stiffening, building a wall of protection around myself. That doesn’t seem right. I don’t want to be angry and push others away. I desire for humility to keep me supple and open and warm and loving. I know I may very well get hurt — again and again and again. I may continue to be betrayed the rest of my life here on this earth. But that will end when I am finally called home to you. I will not always suffer or be alone. And while I am still here, I have opportunities to show others your love, your acceptance, your heart for them. Help me to lay aside my own heart and take on yours, Shepherd. Help me to be a better reflection of you and not close myself off in bitterness and fear. I lay down rejection and betrayal at your feet, Jesus, knowing that you laid them at our Father’s feet as well. Help me to carry the burden of life using YOUR strength, not my own self-preservation. You are my strength and my reason for singing. You save me. Thank you, Lord.


Feb 18

Father, I feel lost and alone and wounded today. Please help me to give you these burdens, instead of foolishly thinking I must carry them by myself. Please comfort and strengthen my heart, and help me to accept your peace and joy. Thank you, faithful Shepherd.

2 Corinthians 1:3-5 ERV

Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. He is the Father who is full of mercy, the God of all comfort. 
He comforts us every time we have trouble so that when others have trouble, we can comfort them with the same comfort God gives us. 
We share in the many sufferings of Christ. In the same way, much comfort comes to us through Christ.


Feb 17

Good morning, Lord!
Thank you for these last two extremely productive days, and thank you for giving me work to do to keep me sane and hopeful! Thank you for waking me up today with a fire under my feet, motivated to put up a Craigslist ad and notices on Facebook, to try to basically sell everything we have. I trust you, Lord. I know that you will continue to close the right doors and open the right doors, leading us forward according to YOUR will and purpose.

Hebrews 6:10 ERV

God is fair, and he will remember all the work you have done. He will remember that you showed your love to him by helping his people and that you continue to help them.

Father, I thank you for showing me some ways to encourage awesome people and spread the word about them and their art and their projects. I thank you for all the blessings I receive in the form of feedback and occasional sales of memberships on I THOUGHT I would get blessed by Patrons, and it sincerely does hurt my heart and discourage me that only one person supports my work in this way, but I give that to you, Father. Help me to let that GO. Your ways are so much better than mine! I accept your will and your provision.

Lord, I am delighted that I have the ability to write and add links with ease, to code HTML effortlessly, and to take pics or find free pics, and make all my writings and such look pretty good. I thank you for my art, although I confess that it is almost impossible to engage my heart and time in anything beyond my art cards right now, while I feel like our living situation is so unstable, and we don’t even have heat or a car or enough money to pay bills — yet. I thank you for those cards and for my consistency in making one each and every day, Lord God, so that I do not feel like my art is being completely neglected. Forgive me for not feeling safer than I do, OH Lord. Forgive me for not trusting you so much that I could be unconcerned about the situation and able to make art and feel completely FREE. Grow me, Lord. Bring me to a place where I am truly content and SECURE in ANY circumstance, no matter how grim. Amen! 😀

Thank you again, Lord, for my health and for taking care of me and my loved ones!


Feb 16

Good morning, Father.
Thank you for protecting and caring for myself and my loved ones. Thank you for helping me be calm and hopeful, and thank you for the super-productive day yesterday! Thank you for making my body strong enough to walk an hour and carry back groceries, day after day, week after week, month after month. Thank you for this time of extreme poverty, so that I can appreciate so many little things in life that are usually taken for granted. Thank you for my art, my books, my love of learning. And thank you, once again, for my work and my Great Courses, lol. 🙂

1 Thessalonians 5:16-24 ERV

Always be full of joy. 
Never stop praying. 
Whatever happens, always be thankful.
This is how God wants you to live in Christ Jesus. 
Don’t stop the work of the Holy Spirit. 
Don’t treat prophecy like something that is not important. 
But test everything. Keep what is good, 
and stay away from everything that is evil. 
We pray that God himself, the God of peace, will make you pure—belonging only to him. We pray that your whole self—spirit, soul, and body—will be kept safe and be blameless when our Lord Jesus Christ comes. 
The one who chose you will do that for you. You can trust him. 

Lord, I pray that you make me pure and belonging only to you. I know that I can trust you completely. Please give me discernment to know what is good and keep it, and to stay away from all evil. Help me to let GO of everything that holds me back or makes me impure or less useful to you. Help me not to follow my heart or mind blindly, but to train them to follow you, and to only desire the things that are of you. Thank you for all that you allow me to have this day, and thank you for making me who I am. Protect and nurture those whom I love, and lead us along the path to you. Amen.


Feb 15

Good morning, Lord.
Thank you for growing me past that horrible, difficult day of despair yesterday. Thank you for healing my husband and bringing out the sunshine, so it will be a bit warmer in this house today — physically and emotionally, lol. Father, I thank you for making me unable to give up or give in, no matter how bad it gets. Thank you for making me a survivor, and thank you for teaching me to pay attention to whatever things do not absolutely suck in that one moment I am living in — letting go of overwhelming things of the past and future moments, focusing on NOW, relying upon YOU. Thank you for teaching me and sustaining me, Master. 🙂

Psalm 123 ERV

A song for going up to the Temple. Lord, I look up and pray to you. You sit as King in heaven. 
A slave looks to his master to provide what he needs, and a servant girl depends on the woman she serves. So we depend on the LORD our God, waiting for him to have mercy on us. 
LORD, be merciful to us, because we have been insulted much too long. 
We have had enough of the hateful words of those proud people who make fun of us and show us no respect.

Father, this Psalm expresses just how I feel: helpless, dependent upon you, and completely without hope if I do not have your mercy and grace. I am feeling weary, Lord, but I know that you will sustain me. My heart feels weak, faintish, grasping hope in you like a lifeline. But I know that you will provide. We need a miracle, Father. But I leave that in your capable hands. It is much, much to big for little me. I will just keep doing the work you gave me, and focusing on the moment at hand. Thank you, merciful Shepherd.


Feb 14

Good morning, Father.
I thank you that life is full of ups and downs, so that when we have down times, we can feel pretty certain that they will not last. I thank you for teaching me about yourself and your own struggles, and I ask you to help my heart and mind and body be strong — and I know you will always keep my spirit strong. Thank you.

Hosea 10:12 ERV

If you plant goodness, you will harvest faithful love. Plow your ground, and you will harvest with the LORD. He will come, and he will make goodness fall on you like rain. 

Hosea 11:3-4 ERV

“But I was the one who taught Ephraim to walk. I took the Israelites in my arms. I healed them, but they don’t know that. 
I led them with ropes, but they were ropes of love. I was like a person who set them free. I bent down and fed them.

Lord, I thank you for your enduring, precious love for your people! Thank you for helping me to understand your heart this tiny bit, and please help me to always be faithful to you, so that I do not hurt your heart. Help me to be strong, and wise, and focused on YOU. Help me to be grateful for whatever you give me, and not mourn the loss of other things that once were. I give my heart to you, Shepherd. Lead on.


Feb 13

Hello, Father.
Thank you so much for gently leading me through the day yesterday, and all these last few weeks that have been so challenging on so many levels. I think if I ever have only ONE major life struggle to endure at once, I may feel like I’m getting spoiled rotten, lol! But in reality, I cannot even picture that happening. Father, please balance me. I have already told you — and I continue to remind myself by re-avowing — that I do not EXPECT to hold on to anything for any length of time, but instead to just accept anything you allow me to have, at that moment. I know that you care for my heart as well as my spirit, and I choose for myself whatever YOU choose for me, my Lord. I trust you completely. At the same time, I know that you have said we can ask for anything, and you will give it. But you know my heart, Lord. If I ask anything for myself, past the necessities of adequate warmth and covering, I really only just desire to be found faithful to you. I would LIKE to also maintain a cozy warmth and the privilege of watching Great Courses, but I do not NEED those things. If I ask for anything else, I only desire things for others — that those I love get to know you on a very intimate, personal level — and that they be FREE. That is what I ask, Oh Lord. Thank you, Shepherd. 🙂

Psalm 27:4 KJV

One thing have I desired of the LORD, that will I seek after; that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the LORD, and to enquire in his temple. 

John 8:31-36 ERV

So Jesus said to the Jews who believed in him, “If you continue to accept and obey my teaching, you are really my followers. 
You will know the truth, and the truth will make you free.
They answered, “We are Abraham’s descendants. And we have never been slaves. So why do you say that we will be free?” 
Jesus said, “The truth is, everyone who sins is a slave—a slave to sin. 
A slave does not stay with a family forever. But a son belongs to the family forever. 
So if the Son makes you free, you are really free. 

Lord, please reveal yourself to my children and lead them in the path of righteousness through YOU, setting them FREE! Please help my husband and me to let go of everything that holds us back, keeps us from walking FREE in this life, as well. I desire to share nature with my husband, to explore your Creation together. We have not had that chance, and I know that I do not NEED it, to be complete. Still, I lay this desire I have at your feet, leaving it on the altar along with my heart, for you, mighty Shepherd. Thank you for laying your entire self there, on that same altar — the First Fruits — our Trailblazer and our mighty Cornerstone. Amen! 😀


Feb 12

Good morning, Lord.
Thank you for all your patience with us crazy humans and all our problems. Thank you for having an interest in us, even as individuals! Thank you for the deer in the forest that I know are still there, waiting to be encountered some day when I make it back to the landscape of nature. Thank you for planting desires for you and for your creation inside our hearts, drawing us to you in a special way for each special soul you created. Thank you for giving each one of us a chance to love you, Lord!

Job 7:17-19 ERV

God, why are people so important to you? Why do you even notice them? 
Why do you visit them every morning and test them at every moment? 
You never look away from me or leave me alone for a second. 

Psalm 8:3-9 ERV

I look at the heavens you made with your hands. I see the moon and the stars you created. 
And I wonder, “Why are people so important to you? Why do you even think about them? Why do you care so much about humans? Why do you even notice them?” 
But you made them almost like gods and crowned them with glory and honor. 
You put them in charge of everything you made. You put everything under their control. 
People rule over the sheep and cattle and all the wild animals. 
They rule over the birds in the sky and the fish that swim in the sea. 
LORD our Lord, your name is the most wonderful name in all the earth!

Lord, I thank you for taking notice of little me. Thank you for sending the 4 new members I’ve gotten this weekend, so that I can afford to pay my electric bill! I thank you for these warm days, so that having no heat has not caused any real harm or any unbearable discomfort. I thank you that I have gone almost a year now without a car — longest time in 30 years! — and yet I feel no real loss or disgrace. Thank you for helping me to keep my eyes on you and trust you no matter what. Thank you for taking care of me and those I love. I trust you completely, Lord. Amen! 😀


Feb 11

Hello again, Father.
Thank you for making me flexible, joyous, and willing. Thank you for giving me a greater cause to fight for in this life, beyond the triviality of wealth or status. Thank you for giving me a mate and awesome children, all of whom have an appreciation for authenticity and artistry. Thank you for giving us peace and provision for our needs. Father, I lift my daughter up to you and ask that you bring her mate forth to cover her. And if it is not your timing for that, Lord, I ask that you teach all three of us how to live free and unhindered by what SEEMS to be the shackles of an old life. I desire to see those I love range FREE in heart and mind and spirit, Lord. This is my prayer. Amen.

2 Peter 2:6-22 ERV

God also punished the evil cities of Sodom and Gomorrah. He burned them until there was nothing left but ashes. He used those cities as an example of what will happen to people who are against God. 
But he saved Lot, a good man who lived there. Lot was greatly troubled by the morally bad lives of those evil people. 
This good man lived with those evil people every day, and his good heart was hurt by the evil things he saw and heard. 
So you see that the Lord God knows how to save those who are devoted to him. He will save them when troubles come. And the Lord will hold evil people to punish them on the day of judgment. 
That punishment is for those who are always doing the evil that their sinful selves want to do. It is for those who hate the Lord’s authority. These false teachers do whatever they want, and they are so proud of themselves. They are not afraid even to say bad things against the glorious ones. 
The angels are much stronger and more powerful than these beings. But even the angels don’t accuse them and say bad things about them to the Lord. 
But these false teachers speak evil against what they don’t understand. They are like animals that do things without really thinking—like wild animals that are born to be caught and killed. And, like wild animals, they will be destroyed. 
They have made many people suffer. So they themselves will suffer. That is their pay for what they have done. They think it is fun to do evil where everyone can see them. They enjoy the evil things that please them. So they are like dirty spots and stains among you—they bring shame to you in the meals you eat together. 
Every time they look at a woman, they want her. They are always sinning this way. And they lead weaker people into the trap of sin. They have taught themselves well to be greedy. They are under a curse. 
These false teachers left the right way and went the wrong way. They followed the same way that the prophet Balaam went. He was the son of Beor, who loved being paid for doing wrong. 
But a donkey told him that he was doing wrong. A donkey cannot talk, of course, but that donkey spoke with a man’s voice and stopped the prophet from acting so crazy. 
These false teachers are like springs that have no water. They are like clouds that are blown by a storm. A place in the deepest darkness has been kept for them. 
They boast with words that mean nothing. They lead people into the trap of sin. They find people who have just escaped from a wrong way of life and lead them back into sin. They do this by using the evil things people want to do in their human weakness. 
These false teachers promise those people freedom, but they themselves are not free. They are slaves to a mind that has been ruined by sin. Yes, people are slaves to anything that controls them. 
People can be made free from the evil in the world. They can be made free by knowing our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. But if they go back into those evil things and are controlled by them, then it is worse for them than it was before. 
Yes, it would be better for them to have never known the right way. That would be better than to know the right way and then to turn away from the holy teaching that was given to them. 
What they did is like these true sayings: “A dog vomits and goes back to what it threw up.” And, “After a pig is washed, it goes back and rolls in the mud again.” 

Lord, I thank you that you stopped up the ears of my heart when I was little, not allowing me to be indoctrinated by the false churches and evil people that took advantage of my tiny body and young mind. I thank you for protecting my spirit, as well as keeping my body alive. I thank you for showing me LOVE and the real power that you have so beautifully hidden within your Creation for all who would see and know you. I thank you that my children are more sick of hearing Nickelback from me, than having had religion shoved down their throat in such a deleterious way that is so morbidly common. I thank you that my children instead have the freedom to get to know you themselves, and I pray that you make yourself known to them, mighty Shepherd. Thank you. 😀


Feb 10

Hello, Father.
Thank you for caring for myself and my family. Thank you so much for each and every one of the noble hearts that rose up to help in whatever little way they could, this last month or so. Please help us in the coming weeks to sell practically everything we own, and move to wherever you are leading us. My husband wants the 3 of us to live in a tiny little camper, but I just can’t see how that could work. Father, I am willing to do whatever you ask of me, and I trust you completely. Please prepare us for whatever you have for us, each of us individually and as a family. Thank you, faithful Shepherd.

2 Timothy 2:20-24 ERV

In a large house there are things made of gold and silver. But there are also things made of wood and clay. Some of these are used for special purposes, others for ordinary jobs. 
The Lord wants to use you for special purposes, so make yourself clean from all evil. Then you will be holy, and the Master can use you. You will be ready for any good work. 
Stay away from the evil things a young person like you typically wants to do. Do your best to live right and to have faith, love, and peace, together with others who trust in the Lord with pure hearts. 
Stay away from foolish and stupid arguments. You know that these arguments grow into bigger arguments. 
As a servant of the Lord, you must not argue. You must be kind to everyone. You must be a good teacher, and you must be patient.

Father, I give you my time, my heart, my work, my expectations and my needs — including my blurry vision and my headaches and all the other little hurts and hindrances that seem far too big for me right now. I only THINK I know a few things, but in reality, I know nothing at all. Thank you for showing me that I am more blind when I THINK I see well, than when I realize how blind I truly am. I must look to you and forget what I think I know. Thank you for teaching me and causing your Word to take root inside me, in my heart and in my mind. Please continue your work in me, and grow me into a plant that yields good fruit for you. Amen. 🙂


Feb 9

Hello, Father.
Thank you for teaching me, molding me, forming me into a vessel that can better be used by you. Thank you for showing me my areas of resistance and decay, things that need to be handed over to you in order to be restructured according to your plan. Father, please help me to look to you moment to moment, gaining my strength and stability and HOPE from you rather than from anything in my environment and circumstances. You are the unchanging ROCK upon which I desire to be built. Purify me, Oh Lord, so that I may worship you with a clean heart. Amen.

Proverbs 20:9-12 ERV

Can anyone say their heart is pure? Who can say, “I am free from sin”? 
The LORD hates for people to use the wrong weights and measures to cheat others. 
Even children show what they are like by the things they do. You can see if their actions are pure and right. 
It was the LORD who gave us eyes for seeing and ears for hearing. 

Proverbs 3:3-8 ERV

Don’t ever let love and loyalty leave you. Tie them around your neck, and write them on your heart. 
Then God will be pleased and think well of you and so will everyone else. 
Trust the LORD completely, and don’t depend on your own knowledge. 
With every step you take, think about what he wants, and he will help you go the right way. 
Don’t trust in your own wisdom, but fear and respect the LORD and stay away from evil. 
If you do this, it will be like a refreshing drink and medicine for your body. 

Lord, I desire to be whole and healed and well and able and willing. At the same time as I am grateful to be able to stop whatever I am doing and just be still and appreciate where I’m at and what is around me, I also desire to be strong enough to bust through walls and swim against the current. At the same time, Lord, I am willing to be and to do whatever is your will for me. You are ENOUGH. Thank you, Shepherd. 🙂


Feb 8

Father, please help me let go of all expectation to hold onto anything, for any length of time. Help me to keep always in mind that NO human DESERVES anything from God, but that all we have is due to your mercy alone. I have asked you to protect my heart from bitterness, and you have faithfully shown me how, what I must do to maintain joy no matter my circumstances. So please help me to let go of ALL my expectations, knowing only that YOU are Faithful and will take care of me in your own way, in your own timing. I trust you completely, Lord. Thank you. 🙂

Psalm 31:19-24 ERV

Lord, you have hidden away many wonderful things for your followers. You have done so many good things for those who trust in you. You have blessed them so that all the world can see. 
Others make plans to hurt them. They say such bad things about them. But you hide your people in your shelter and protect them. 
Praise the LORD, because he showed me how wonderful his faithful love is when the city was surrounded by enemies. 
I was afraid and said, “I am in a place where he cannot see me.” But I prayed to you, and you heard my loud cries for help. 
Love the LORD, all of you who are his loyal followers. The LORD protects those who are loyal to him. But he punishes those who brag about their own power. He gives them all the punishment they deserve. 
Be strong and brave, all of you who are waiting for the LORD’S help. 

Lord, I thank you that I have food to eat and enough warmth that I am not disabled. I thank you that my body is strong enough to walk for an hour straight, up and down a hill, carrying groceries on the way back, to care for my family. I thank you that I have hope and joy and peace and love! I thank you for bringing me safely through those most horrible days of hormone imbalance, and already showing me a way to keep the NEXT downswing (in about 6 weeks??) from getting quite that bad. Thank you for watching over myself and all those I love and care for deeply. Thank you for helping me remember how RICH I am, Father! Amen! 😀


Feb 7

Good morning, Father.
Thank you for the progress you made in building me, these last 24 hours or so, even if I only slept about 4 of those hours, lol. Please strengthen my body to walk up over the hill and over to the other side of town to get what my husband feels he needs. You see what is in my heart, all the hurts and hopes and fears and loves. I give my heart, my body, my mind, my time to you, my Shepherd. Thank you for allowing me to be in your flock, and thank you for creating me how I am and making me who you want me to be. Help me to be faithful to the end, that I may dwell in your House forever. Amen.

Psalm 27:4-14 ERV

I ask only one thing from the LORD. This is what I want most: Let me live in the LORD’S house all my life, enjoying the LORD’S beauty and spending time in his palace. 
He will protect me when I am in danger. He will hide me in his tent. He will take me up to his place of safety. 
If he will help me defeat the enemies around me, I will offer sacrifices in his tent with shouts of joy. I will sing and play songs to honor the LORD. 
LORD, hear my voice. Be kind and answer me. 
My heart told me to come to you, LORD, so I am coming to ask for your help. 
Don’t turn away from me. Don’t be angry with your servant. You are the only one who can help me. My God, don’t leave me all alone. You are my Savior. 
Even if my mother and father leave me, the LORD will take me in. 
I have enemies, LORD, so teach me your ways. Show me the right way to live. 
My enemies have attacked me. They have told lies about me and have tried to hurt me. 
But I really believe that I will see the LORD’S goodness before I die. 
Wait for the LORD’S help. Be strong and brave, and wait for the LORD’S help. 

Lord, my heart is crying out to you for help and for strength and for comfort. Hear my cries, help my heart, show me the path I must walk. Strengthen my arms to carry the weak, make my back strong enough to wield whatever you load up on my back, and make my footing sure and steady. Thank you for pruning hindrances out of my life and heart and mind and soul. Thank you for cleansing me and making me yours. Father, please protect me from all bitterness, and let your Love shine out through my eyes, to warm the hearts of anyone I see. Help me to help your people, Father. Amen.


Feb 6

Father, please help me through this time. I feel out of control, I guess from the hormones, I don’t know. I cannot think straight, cannot see well, barely even know my own name, it seems. I could describe this crazy sensation a thousand different ways, but it seems best to just keep quiet, and let it pass. Thank you for your mercy, Shepherd. Amen.

Psalm 111 ERV

Praise the LORD! I thank the LORD with all my heart in the assembly of his good people. 
The LORD does wonderful things, more than anyone could ask for. 
The things he does are great and glorious! There is no end to his goodness. 
He does amazing things so that we will remember that the LORD is kind and merciful. 
He gives food to his followers. He remembers his agreement forever. 
He has shown his people how powerful he is by giving them the land of other nations. 
Everything he does is good and fair. All his commands can be trusted. 
His commands will continue forever. They must be done with truth and honesty. 
He rescued his people and made his agreement with them forever. His name is awesome and holy. 
Wisdom begins with fear and respect for the LORD. Those who obey him are very wise. Praises will be sung to him forever. 

Lord, please protect me and heal me, be my strength and my support. I trust you completely, my Lord. Show me how to walk in this hazy, baffling mist. Don’t let me stumble and lose my way or get all cut up on the rocks. Light my path and help me to keep my eyes on YOU, not on the shadows that lurk beyond the path. They are not my battles, not my concern. All I must do is be thankful, and pray, and trust you. Don’t let me miss a turn in the road, Father. I cannot trust my own eyes right now. Open my heart to hear your voice, and remind me of your love and provision. Amen.


Feb 5

Hello, Father.
Thank you for humbling me, showing me plainly that I am completely dependent upon you for everything. My contact lens experiment completely failed, and it has joined the ranks of what seems like everything else in my life that is just barely tolerable, without any real chance to improve it. I just have to limp along through life, moment to moment, surviving and doing the best I can. I suppose that is all any of us can do, anyways. I do miss being able to see clearly, and not have headaches. I miss having heat and I miss having a car. I miss having someone else who makes some money and who can bring things into the household — food, other necessities. I give it all to you, Lord God. Help me to let it GO! This weight will crush me, if I do not. Please cover my blurry vision and protect me, Shepherd. I have no hope but you. Amen.

Deuteronomy 34:1-7 ERV

Moses climbed Mount Nebo. Moses went from the Jordan Valley in Moab to the top of Mount Pisgah. This was across the Jordan River from Jericho. The LORD showed Moses all the land from Gilead to Dan. 
He showed him all the land of Naphtali, Ephraim, and Manasseh. He showed him all the land of Judah as far as the Mediterranean Sea. 
He showed Moses the Negev and the valley that goes from Zoar to Jericho, the city of palm trees. 
The LORD said to Moses, “This is the land I promised to Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob. I said to them, ‘I will give this land to your descendants. I have let you see the land, but you cannot go there.'” 
Then Moses, the LORD’S servant, died there in the land of Moab. The LORD had told Moses this would happen. 
He buried Moses in Moab. This was in the valley across from Beth Peor. But even today, no one knows exactly where Moses’ grave is. 
Moses was 120 years old when he died. He was as strong as ever, and his eyes were still good. 

Lord, you see inside my heart, and you know all that is there. When I read that last verse, I cried. I am still crying. I just don’t know of what use to you or anyone else I can be, when my eyes are so bad, with no hope of making them any better. I hurt, Lord. Please help me to see and to recognize — and to APPRECIATE all forms of help and hope and comfort that you provide for me, Lord, so I can make it. I put myself in your faithful, loving hands, Shepherd. Heal me, make me yours. Amen.


Feb 4

Good morning, Father.
Thank you for your awesome care, keeping us safe and in good health. Thank you for giving us enough wood to heat part of the house up a bit, so we do not get too cold and discouraged. Please guide us each step of the way, Father. None of us know what is the BEST thing to do, and the best timing — we really need your help, Lord. Please help my heart as I complete this round of OTC hormone treatment, and make my way to the next plateau of peace and “normal” days — although with our living situation so unstable, and no car and no heat, “normal” is still pretty scary. But at least my emotions should stabilize a bit better. Thank you, Father. Please help our hearts be faithful and strong, as we trust in you and look to you for guidance. Amen.

1 Peter 5:6-11 ERV

So be humble under God’s powerful hand. Then he will lift you up when the right time comes. 
Give all your worries to him, because he cares for you. 
Control yourselves and be careful! The devil is your enemy, and he goes around like a roaring lion looking for someone to attack and eat. 
Refuse to follow the devil. Stand strong in your faith. You know that your brothers and sisters all over the world are having the same sufferings that you have. 
Yes, you will suffer for a short time. But after that, God will make everything right. He will make you strong. He will support you and keep you from falling. He is the God who gives all grace. He chose you to share in his glory in Christ. That glory will continue forever. 
All power is his forever. Amen.

Lord, I trust you completely. I know that you will make me strong and help me through these frightening times. You will carry my sorrows, and allow me to keep giving my worries to you. Thank you for caring for me so faithfully, my Shepherd! Please help me be faithful to you! Amen. 🙂


Feb 3

Hello, Father.
Thank you for the tender sweet care this morning, keeping me snug in bed while the fire got going and the house got warmer. Thank you for teaching me, guiding me, carrying me through these difficult days. Thank you for the coming warmer weather, and thank you for my space heaters and my husband’s tending of the fire, to keep us warm. Please help him in fixing his chainsaw, so we still can have a fire and won’t get too cold, before spring arrives. Father, please show us how to live, what to sell, what to do with our time to prepare for the days ahead. I know what you have given ME to do, but none of us have any idea what you have planned for my husband and my daughter. We still do not know if we will have to split up in order to make it, or if you will allow us to stay together, and find a place that ALL of us can afford to live, together. Father, please bring the right people to our house to buy what we have to sell, and please help us earn enough to get a working vehicle. Thank you for sustaining my heart and my sanity. Amen!

Psalm 16:5-11 ERV

LORD, you give me all that I need. You support me. You give me my share. 
My share is wonderful. My inheritance is very beautiful. 
I praise the LORD because he taught me well. Even at night he put his instructions deep inside my mind. 
I always remember that the LORD is with me. He is here, close by my side, so nothing can defeat me. 
So my heart and soul will be very happy. Even my body will live in safety, 
because you will not leave me in the place of death. You will not let your faithful one rot in the grave. 
You will teach me the right way to live. Just being with you will bring complete happiness. Being at your right side will make me happy forever. 

Thank you, Lord, for always being near me, always reassuring me with your presence. Please show me how I can help others, even while I need so much, myself. Show me how to bless those I come in contact with, even if it is a simple listening ear, a kind word, or some type of encouragement. Father, I thank you for those who have reached out and given support to me in the last week or so, providing just enough money for us to survive and to not feel so beat down and alone. Thank you for growing your love in your people’s hearts, Oh Lord! 😀


Feb 2

Good morning, Father.
Thank you so much for taking care of me while I go through this hormone stuff again — AND everything else, like no heat and confusing computer stuff! Thank you for the joy that still lives in my heart and how I get all excited about certain “little things”. It surprises me sometimes, Lord, how happy I can feel despite my circumstances. Truly you are an awesome God! 😀

Psalm 119:41-45 ERV

LORD, show me your faithful love. Save me, as you promised. 
Then I will have an answer for those who make fun of me for trusting what you say. 
Let me always say what is true. I depend on your judgment to be fair. 
I will follow your teachings forever and ever. 
So I will live in freedom, because I do my best to know your instructions. 

Thank you, Father, for your provision. Thank you for my space heaters, and for encouraging my husband to build a fire. Thank you for the warm clothes I have — even if I DO only have one shirt that does not have holes and so can be worn in public. I know you will provide a way for me to get new shirts before the warm weather makes me NEED them, or else you will help me adapt to wearing the uncomfortable ones I have hidden away in drawers, because they do not fit right. I know you will provide, Lord, as you always have. Thank you for giving me a grateful heart, full of LOVE! 😀